LonelyDude15

LonelyDude15

Currently Spiraling
Sep 26, 2020
277
That's exactly why you have to look hot. Their ambivalence is all the more shameful. <333
Ya, I'm gonna have my glow-up right before I die. Idk if no one else cares this is for me
 
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Drowning fish

Drowning fish

I want to die
Sep 9, 2020
76
I kinda want to wear something eerie or overdress. I'm that extra.
 
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Deleted member 19654

Deleted member 19654

Working towards recovery.
Jul 9, 2020
1,628
Not sure it matter you know because your dead. I guess I won't want my family to go through that but its lowkey non of my business by that point
That's true. I'll be dead so it wouldn't really matter. It won't matter what I look like before I ctb and it won't matter whatever happens to my body afterwards
 
Lilacmoon

Lilacmoon

Beautiful moon, take me away.
Sep 23, 2020
1,308
Not sure it matter you know because your dead. I guess I won't want my family to go through that but its lowkey non of my business by that point
that makes perfect sense.
I just think that it would help me calm down, a nice ritual to do to take my mind off of the fear before the final brink.
 
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Meditation guide

Meditation guide

Always was, is, and always shall be.
Jun 22, 2020
6,089
Ah, so there's some vanity there after all. Don't mean to provoke.
It's just that it's actually a body I love. Something I feel has been there for me in spite of not getting the best treatment. Strong legs and strong heart. Very pretty hands. It's served me well, as much as it could under the circumstances.
 
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Spitfire

Enlightened
Apr 26, 2020
1,274
Unless it's your family or friends it will be some heartless unfeeling goons. Look at the guy who shot his head off. No one even bothered to go over to what was left of him. They didn't care. Thats what it will be to them. Look as pretty as you want no one will care. Their job is to scoop up a corpse and cart it to the morgue to a freezer.

This is too true it actually kind of hurts to know for me, for some reason. I have seen people treat the dead pretty badly. Not caring in the least...

I have taken bodies to the basement (THE BASEMENT IS THE MORGUE), and seen some people toss them in the freezer in what I thought was a very rude and disrespectful way when they were doing it.

I always tried to be respectful of the dead.
 
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Xocoyotziin

Xocoyotziin

Scorpion
Sep 5, 2020
402
It's just that it's actually a body I love. Something I feel has been there for me in spite of not getting the best treatment. Strong legs and strong heart. Very pretty hands. It's served me well, as much as it could under the circumstances.
Well that's a pretty cool way to look at it. Respect.
 
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Squiddy

Squiddy

Here Lies My Hopes And Dreams
Sep 4, 2019
5,903
In the event that I do decide to ctb, I'll probably lose some weight first (at least 30-90lbs), wear my favorite anime shirt (dragon ball super) and jeans
 
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Meditation guide

Meditation guide

Always was, is, and always shall be.
Jun 22, 2020
6,089
Well that's a pretty cool way to look at it. Respect.
In olden times, it was the family that took care of the body, and they did it with respect usually. Washing it and put the best clothes on it and displayed it briefly nicely laid out. It was one of their own and they handled it with love.
 
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Wizard
Jul 31, 2020
690
black clothes simply
 
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Weightoftheworld

Weightoftheworld

Let me burn.
Apr 19, 2020
258
I thought about wearing my shirt that says Feelin' Great.
I don't care much how my hair, beard and body hair are going to look but I will try to be clean and wear a pleasing t-shirt and boxer. But I do still think ppl will be disgusted especially those involving in autopsy since they will see and touch my naked body. I worry about this.
As someone who's performed postmortem care quite a few times, those in the profession are not disgusted by it, don't worry.
 
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Panna

Panna

Enlightened
Aug 31, 2020
1,006
I plan to eventually jump from a ten story building, looking good in any way would be impossible for that kind of scenario.
 
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flowerpetalashtray

flowerpetalashtray

like smoke
Jul 31, 2020
7
why not? might as well go out in style :)
 
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OpheliasFlowers

OpheliasFlowers

Specialist
Apr 2, 2019
348
I was never a beauty in my 'best' days, then I got uglier and cared less and less about my appearance as I got sick(er) and older...so I can't bring myself to care what I look like when I'm dead. People never really look like themselves when dead anyway, and depending on method used - or if you pass from a natural cause, or accident, or whatever - and how long until you're found and other factors like temperature, etc, you're not going to be looking good anyway. I understand romanticizing the idea of being found though. Everyone wants to be seen and/or remembered as beautiful, or at least not offensive. It's just personally I don't care. I am a decrepit shell of what I was before (and 'before' wasn't much to look at to begin with) so trying to look good for when I'm found seems like a waste of effort for me. Plus anyone who finds me won't be family or friends, and they're not going to care what I look like, and I'm not going to have any kind of funeral or memorial service of any kind either - straight to cremation for me. So maybe I'll wear a gorilla suit or shave my head totally bald or wear fake vampire teeth when I ctb. None of it matters in the end (in my case).
 
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BipolarGuy

BipolarGuy

Enlightened
Aug 6, 2020
1,456
I have thought about this.

I do plan to look normal, but won't make special effort.

I was found early when I tried to do it last year.
My jumper and coat was just cut off of me so that lines could be inserted.

I doubt they would attempt this if they found you dead though.
 
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nitroautnz

nitroautnz

Specialist
Sep 11, 2020
361
Not sure what I will wear but definitely something nice and i will take a shower before, maybe shaving my beard too. Not for other people but just for myself.
 
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stupid little girl

always sad
Nov 28, 2019
35
Honestly, I don't know. If I do dress up I'll look like I'm heading to a funeral. Save the time and energy into making me look presentable in a casket. Then again it won't really matter so ‍♀️
 
BridgeJumper

BridgeJumper

The Arsonist
Apr 7, 2019
1,194
I dont care anymore. Its not like anyone would give a shit about me dying.
Even when I have something important coming up. I cant force myself to shower.
Pointless and not worth it.
 
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mooncake

mooncake

Student
Aug 7, 2020
116
Yes! I'm most concerned with what my body looks like when I'm found, because I don't want to give anyone nightmares. Which is why I'm still torn on my method.

I'm also still deciding what I want to wear. I'm definitely gonna do my make up and, I'll prepare a kit of my favorite make-up products and outfit for my funeral. I've been made to feel ugly so often, that styling my self, the way I like to look, is a form of empowerment for me. So is ctb.
It bothers me a little bit, that I can't do my make up for my funeral though haha but at least I hope that my products will be used.
 
Tasdevil

Tasdevil

Student
Jan 20, 2020
115
Nope whatever I am wearing at the time will do.
 
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schopenh

schopenh

Specialist
Oct 21, 2019
385
Yep, I even lost 10 kg in the past few months to look better when I'm found. A few weeks ago I got a haircut but never went through with CTB. So Guess I'll be going for another haircut soon. I shower, shave, wash my teeth etc/ every day any way.

What to do about the fact that your bowels and bladder will empty and your method may disfigure you or you may end up with vomit everywhere clutching at the edge of your bed? So no matter how you look the smell will be horrible.
 
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JSRF

JSRF

Student
May 30, 2018
134
No, but I advise everyone to make an enema, so you wont have shit your pants and whoever finds your body will have an easier time.
Also dudes should jerk off beforr CTB as there is a chance that you will wet your pants.
Sorry for going there, but these are real issues
 
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mooncake

mooncake

Student
Aug 7, 2020
116
I'm sure if you knew what happens to corpses you wouldn't bother to pretty yourselves up. You are going to look ghastly especially if they autopsy you. They slice you up like a Thanksgiving turkey.

If you get taken to a funeral home it is there that they paint your face, arrange your hair or put a wig on you and dress you. They do a remarkable job much of the time, better than you can do even.

But putrifaction quickly sets in, so you won't stay looking good for long.

I know what decomposition does, and I still want to feel pretty lol
 
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GoneGoneGone

Enlightened
Apr 1, 2020
1,141
@idonk do I need to do anything to look pretty before I ctb?
 
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LonelyDude15

LonelyDude15

Currently Spiraling
Sep 26, 2020
277
I've been visiting a dermatologist to fix some of my skin blemishes beforehand. I'm kinda fixating on leaving a perfect final image for those I'll leave behind.
 
Acopia

Acopia

Specialist
Sep 21, 2020
355
Ykw, I hate the thought that hair keeps growing after you die.
I don't like being hairy at all:hmph:
I'll be so bloody uncomfortable in my grave!
 
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mylastserenade

Member
Oct 19, 2020
50
not sure why but the last two days ive been thinking about doing it semi naked and writing a bunch of things on my body before i go, not sure what i would write or why i want to do it, mayby like a last last message after my letters
 
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Deleted member 17949

Deleted member 17949

Visionary
May 9, 2020
2,238
I'll be ugly no matter what so no
 

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