Discussion Is anyone else’s brain fried but not bc of drugs?

[katara]

I literally can't focus on anything, even years ago when I wanted to read a book I could only do it via audiobook. I'm constantly trying to scan over things but it just doesn't organize properly in my brain. Anyone else have similar issues? This has been a huge part in suicidal thoughts and my depression. If I ever got a job it could never be anything high earning. I just don't know how normal people function.

 

[failedmind]

Yes 100%. I was just thinking about this earlier today. My brain feels completely fried and I can't focus or memorize things like I used to. It's so hard to function

 

[breadMan]

I literally can't focus on anything, even years ago when I wanted to read a book I could only do it via audiobook. I'm constantly trying to scan over things but it just doesn't organize properly in my brain. Anyone else have similar issues? This has been a huge part in suicidal thoughts and my depression. If I ever got a job it could never be anything high earning. I just don't know how normal people function.

I have been having this ever since a weed induced panic attack that landed me in HR. Ever since then i have not had a singke thought. Camt process anything. Dont remember what it is like to be a person. My main reason for wanting to CTB.

 

[Don’tWakeMe]

I have been having this ever since a weed induced panic attack that landed me in HR. Ever since then i have not had a singke thought. Camt process anything. Dont remember what it is like to be a person. My main reason for wanting to CTB.

This sounds awful. I can somewhat relate, in a way. I've been unemployed for two years after finishing my masters degree, and I feel like I've been in limbo, my whole existence and personhood and identity hinge on my employment. My job has always been my identity, no job=no identity, (thanks BPD). Check out the book "Everything, Nothing, Someone"; she had a similar experience with CBD oil. It is available as an audiobook.

Yes 100%. I was just thinking about this earlier today. My brain feels completely fried and I can't focus or memorize things like I used to. It's so hard to function

Remember that PTSD and depression cause brain damage. It's like a really slowly inflicted traumatic brain injury. I have the same issue, also affected by ADHD.

 

[eggsausagerice]

i feel like i'm literally just stupid half the time lol. i have no diagnosis so when i say stuff like "i have autism and adhd" or "i have cpstd", i'm just saying it but i'll never really know for sure. i've been chronically depressed for a long time. since most of my college friends have met me i've struggled with suicidal thoughts or generally thinking that i'm a worthless person. it's hard for me to develop the motivation or attention span to pick up hobbies or do stuff that's fulfilling like read a book. i love watching movies but when i'm in a depressive episode i don't want to turn one on because i'll feel too sad to want to pay attention to it. i'm worse when it comes to school. i feel incapable of doing anything besides elementary math because i feel so anxious trying to relearn it, since i've flunked almost all my math classes. i don't have a job and i go to community college.

in the long summer days where i go a while without seeing anyone or doing anything, i stop existing and just eat, sleep, play video games, and watch youtube videos. it feels like i could go into a coma and die and i'd have the same amount of brain activity i have going on right now. everyone i know seems to be smarter and more capable than me.

 

[katara]

Yes 100%. I was just thinking about this earlier today. My brain feels completely fried and I can't focus or memorize things like I used to. It's so hard to function

Ya the memory stuff is why I've never been able to learn a new language. I never understood how people do that but then I remember they probably have opportunity to travel and speak with people. It's just really stressful seeing all these normal people doing normal things. I wonder why it couldn't have been me. Why couldn't I have swapped lives with these people

 

[Pluto]

 

[darksouls]

in 2023 I endet up in the intensive care unit with sepsis
the sepsis was caused by an internal infection
this damaged my brain

 

[jazzcat621]

I think you pretty much described ADHD. I feel the same way, but especially so lately with my conditions worsening. I wonder if depression and anxiety aggravate it.

 

[mourningyesterday]

yeah im exactly the same, have to force myself to listen to a youtube video or if somebody is talking to me im not even present my mind just wanders off and races about random shit, like u said it feels my brain is fried is continuously getting worse

 

[katara]

in 2023 I endet up in the intensive care unit with sepsis
the sepsis was caused by an internal infection
this damaged my brain

Sounds painful sorry u had to deal with that I've never experienced that before.

yeah im exactly the same, have to force myself to listen to a youtube video or if somebody is talking to me im not even present my mind just wanders off and races about random shit, like u said it feels my brain is fried is continuously getting worse

ya tbh I forget I even made this post but ya I just have no help and I feel terrible as time passes

 

[WakingNightmare]

Yea depression seems to sap energy from me in general, including my brain. Wouldn't say I am dumber but it definitely takes longer to think about things

 

[badatparties]

Yes, depression will definitely damage your cognitive functioning. Disassociation is also a real thing.

 

[Jisatsu]

I do the drugs I do because I either feel constantly overstimulated or I feel nothing at all. I know my brain has been beyond damaged from not only the depression but also from the drugs.

 

[astroproto]

I do. Feels like my brain has become rotten. Can't focus for shit. Can even viscerally feel brain fog.

Every time I need to do some academic stuff, I just can't and I go into a cycle of just distracting myself and trying and failing to do something productive and that's why I'm about to drop out again.

 

[Lookingtoflyfree]

I have multiple conditions that are creating brain fog. I'm tired of having a body that is falling apart. Time to revisit what planning to do.

https://apnews.com/article/euthanas...-netherlands-b5c4906d0305dd97e16da363575c03ae makes me hope for ways to escape - to find a country to do this in gives me hope

 

[katara]

Yea depression seems to sap energy from me in general, including my brain. Wouldn't say I am dumber but it definitely takes longer to think about things

It makes me feel like I'm stupid

Yes, depression will definitely damage your cognitive functioning. Disassociation is also a real thing.

thats why I worry so much with not having any way to get out of my situation. It's like I'm trapped and I really want to get out. I've just been lonely and depressed for so long

I do. Feels like my brain has become rotten. Can't focus for shit. Can even viscerally feel brain fog.

Every time I need to do some academic stuff, I just can't and I go into a cycle of just distracting myself and trying and failing to do something productive and that's why I'm about to drop out again.

That's how I feel, exactly. I don't think I'll ever be able to go back to school and graduate