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Deleted member 23774

Deleted member 23774

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Nov 14, 2020
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I'm really wanting to ctb right now, but I decided to wait until after Christmas until I ctb. I don't have many friends or family, but I don't want to make it sad for them. I really wish that I didn't have to wait because I have everything that I need to ctb. I decided that I'm going to ctb before New Year's Eve. I will be in torment until I can rest forever.
 
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W’ren

W’ren

Worthless
Oct 28, 2020
557
Part of my early 2021 ctb time frame was so i could experience one last X mas with the little ones of the family...
I don't want to ruin anything for anyone but i think with the burden of myself gone, the folks around me would be relieved...
 
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Deleted member 23774

Deleted member 23774

Member
Nov 14, 2020
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Part of my early 2021 ctb time frame was so i could experience one last X mas with the little ones of the family...
I don't want to ruin anything for anyone but i think with the burden of myself gone, the folks around me would be relieved...
Yeah, I feel like I'm a huge burden for my friends and family.
 
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Pookie

Pookie

Somebody you used to know.
Oct 18, 2020
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I wish I could ctb right now but I have a few things to wrap up before I go. I'll have to wait till 2021.
 
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Deleted member 23774

Deleted member 23774

Member
Nov 14, 2020
78
I wish I could ctb right now but I have a few things to wrap up before I go. I'll have to wait till 2021.
Yeah, I have to take care of some things first.
 
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MindFog

MindFog

:Professional Hypocrite:
Nov 19, 2020
733
I don't want them to spend the holidays grieving. It'll also be the first xmas we'll have together.

It makes me feel guilty though. I might be just stalling the inevitable.
 
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Sherri

Sherri

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Sep 28, 2020
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I was planning NYE, but unsure now...
 
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justanotherstar

justanotherstar

Life: you can’t fire me, I quit.
Nov 23, 2020
345
I promised myself I would give my family one last good Christmas and I have some affairs I need to put in order so I'll be here through January. But yeah I feel that pull to go now too. I'm tired
 
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Konjac

Konjac

Specialist
Oct 25, 2020
301
Every day it's getting more and more tempting to just say 'fuck it' and take the SN but I'm just trying to remind myself, only a couple more weeks and then the pain will be over. Can't rush into these things, I've still got a few loose ends to tie up. It's so hard to resist though :(
 
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Deleted member 23774

Deleted member 23774

Member
Nov 14, 2020
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Every day it's getting more and more tempting to just say 'fuck it' and take the SN but I'm just trying to remind myself, only a couple more weeks and then the pain will be over. Can't rush into these things, I've still got a few loose ends to tie up. It's so hard to resist though :(

Every day it's getting more and more tempting to just say 'fuck it' and take the SN but I'm just trying to remind myself, only a couple more weeks and then the pain will be over. Can't rush into these things, I've still got a few loose ends to tie up. It's so hard to resist though :(
Yeah, it's hard.
 
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Hennessy

Hennessy

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Jan 14, 2019
359
I am postponing too. I actually look forward to christmas very much. I will have a very long vacation and I will spend it with my parents. Then I shall forget about the rest of the world and just relax. I will not think about work or this wretched world we all live in. Holidays are my sanctuary.
 
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greebo6

Enlightened
Sep 11, 2020
1,671
Yes.
I am thinking January.
 
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