Is anyone else waiting to ctb until after the holidays?

[Deleted member 23774]

I'm really wanting to ctb right now, but I decided to wait until after Christmas until I ctb. I don't have many friends or family, but I don't want to make it sad for them. I really wish that I didn't have to wait because I have everything that I need to ctb. I decided that I'm going to ctb before New Year's Eve. I will be in torment until I can rest forever.

 

[Echo]

Part of my early 2021 ctb time frame was so i could experience one last X mas with the little ones of the family...
I don’t want to ruin anything for anyone but i think with the burden of myself gone, the folks around me would be relieved...

 

[Deleted member 23774]

Part of my early 2021 ctb time frame was so i could experience one last X mas with the little ones of the family...
I don’t want to ruin anything for anyone but i think with the burden of myself gone, the folks around me would be relieved...

Yeah, I feel like I'm a huge burden for my friends and family.

 

[Pookie]

I wish I could ctb right now but I have a few things to wrap up before I go. I’ll have to wait till 2021.

 

[Deleted member 23774]

I wish I could ctb right now but I have a few things to wrap up before I go. I’ll have to wait till 2021.

Yeah, I have to take care of some things first.

 

[MindFog]

I don't want them to spend the holidays grieving. It'll also be the first xmas we'll have together.

It makes me feel guilty though. I might be just stalling the inevitable.

 

[Sherri]

I was planning NYE, but unsure now...

 

[justanotherstar]

I promised myself I would give my family one last good Christmas and I have some affairs I need to put in order so I’ll be here through January. But yeah I feel that pull to go now too. I’m tired

 

[Konjac]

Every day it's getting more and more tempting to just say 'fuck it' and take the SN but I'm just trying to remind myself, only a couple more weeks and then the pain will be over. Can't rush into these things, I've still got a few loose ends to tie up. It's so hard to resist though :(

 

[Deleted member 23774]

Every day it's getting more and more tempting to just say 'fuck it' and take the SN but I'm just trying to remind myself, only a couple more weeks and then the pain will be over. Can't rush into these things, I've still got a few loose ends to tie up. It's so hard to resist though :(

Every day it's getting more and more tempting to just say 'fuck it' and take the SN but I'm just trying to remind myself, only a couple more weeks and then the pain will be over. Can't rush into these things, I've still got a few loose ends to tie up. It's so hard to resist though :(

Yeah, it's hard.

 

[Hennessy]

I am postponing too. I actually look forward to christmas very much. I will have a very long vacation and I will spend it with my parents. Then I shall forget about the rest of the world and just relax. I will not think about work or this wretched world we all live in. Holidays are my sanctuary.

 

[greebo6]

Yes.
I am thinking January.