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Jisatsu

Jisatsu

黒恄薔薇(The Black Rose)
Jan 5, 2025
2,012
I'm patiently waiting on the perfect date to finally ctb. I feel ready but I'm finally at peace with when I plan for my body to be found.

Is anyone else feeling this way ? Do you feel peace when you know you finally have a date ?
 
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suacide

suacide

angel
Sep 13, 2023
69
I'm thinking if I still want to go through it, May 23rd next year. I just know it has to be May 23rd. If you're comfortable, do you wanna share yours?
 
Jisatsu

Jisatsu

黒恄薔薇(The Black Rose)
Jan 5, 2025
2,012
I'm thinking if I still want to go through it, May 23rd next year. I just know it has to be May 23rd. If you're comfortable, do you wanna share yours?
Sometime next week I don't wanna jinx it
 
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suacide

suacide

angel
Sep 13, 2023
69
Sometime next week I don't wanna jinx it
I hope however it goes, you'll be at peace šŸ¤
But to answer your question properly, yeah I think the thought does give me peace. It's like knowing for sure, things will change one way or another. It's a really important day to me too, though it does make me nervous to think if I can't get it right then, I'll have to wait a year.
 
passedawayinapril

passedawayinapril

Burial
Nov 25, 2024
271
I'm patiently waiting on the perfect date to finally ctb. I feel ready but I'm finally at peace with when I plan for my body to be found.

Is anyone else feeling this way ? Do you feel peace when you know you finally have a date ?
I will probably commit suicide the next year
 
isthisforreal

isthisforreal

Member
Jun 14, 2025
7
I have my date planned already but it is something I am not completely set on, it isn't "the perfect date" or anything, just a more convenient one for me. If you guys don't mind sharing, what sort of things could be classed as a "perfect date" for CTB?
 
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adoptedpain

adoptedpain

Member
Jun 7, 2025
45
How do you get permissions to contact individuals on here for support when you relate to exactly what is being expressed?
 
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secretghost

secretghost

before the new year, hopefully a lot sooner?
Jun 23, 2025
102
How do you get permissions to contact individuals on here for support when you relate to exactly what is being expressed?
I think it really is just an automatic function after you hit a mysterious but not super hard to achieve amount of posts and comments
I have my date planned already but it is something I am not completely set on, it isn't "the perfect date" or anything, just a more convenient one for me. If you guys don't mind sharing, what sort of things could be classed as a "perfect date" for CTB?
This is the same for me. I only picked that particular date from a range of data because it seemed convenient for myself and for the early fried process of loved ones, correlating with other stuff going on this summer (ex:' the day of someone else's memorial service is a bad day to find out your partner caught the bus' is kind of things I was thinking about when I set my date) I'm not sure what a perfect date might be, unless someone was trying to be particularly poetic or symbolic in the date. Since I won't be here after, I mostly just tried to think about the implications of the date on the ones who will grieve me
 

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