is anyone else not planning on leaving a suicide note/goodbye when they ctb?

[PeacefulTonic]

I was planning to, but I'm not sure anymore. I still have all the notes typed out so it'll probably be a decision I make on the day of ctb

 

[lobster salad]

Not writing a note after my mom told me 3 weeks back that i should go and die instead of writing family and friends 'stupid notes' to thank them and she said she was tired of reading them. Mind you I only wrote 2 or 3 and she only found 1. If that's enough for her to say that I'll save her the trouble of reading yet another on my day of demise. Close friends and other family members knows my bullshit, some refuse to accept it , some do not understand. I don't know how my note will help them anyways — ignorants' stay ignorant , period

 

[eternalmelancholy]

Not writing a note after my mom told me 3 weeks back that i should go and die instead of writing family and friends 'stupid notes' to thank them and she said she was tired of reading them. Mind you I only wrote 2 or 3 and she only found 1. If that's enough for her to say that I'll save her the trouble of reading yet another on my day of demise. Close friends and other family members knows my bullshit, some refuse to accept it , some do not understand. I don't know how my note will help them anyways — ignorants' stay ignorant , period

It really sucks knowing that even your family hates you. I don't think you owe anyone an explanation and it sounds like they don't deserve one anyway.

 

[rationaltake]

I've no inclination to write a note. I have little communication with friends now. Though when I text I do tell them how much I appreciate them.

 

[a.uniqueusername]

I'm not sure if this would count but by way of a note I'm working on quietly getting a will in order. I don't really have much of anything to leave to anyone that would be of interest but I just want to make sure I don't burden my beleagured little family any further with having to sort out any of my stuff or my accounts. Moreover, the way the law stands right now, my, for lack of a better word, 'undeserving' father would be entitled to a good chunk of what admittedly little I'm leaving behind.
As much as is possible I'm trying to follow out the idiom of a bird leaves the water undisturbed.

 

[8evergo]

I have to do

 

[grasping at straws]

I want to, and probably will, but I don't feel it will suffice. No explanation will justify my decision to them, no loving words will ease their pain, there's nothing I could say that would be enough. However, I feel it's best to try, to give them something.

 

[a.uniqueusername]

I have to do

Out of curiousity, may I ask why?

 

[8evergo]

Out of curiousity, may I ask why?

for my relatives

 

[rationaltake]

I'm not sure if this would count but by way of a note I'm working on quietly getting a will in order. I don't really have much of anything to leave to anyone that would be of interest but I just want to make sure I don't burden my beleagured little family any further with having to sort out any of my stuff or my accounts. Moreover, the way the law stands right now, my, for lack of a better word, 'undeserving' father would be entitled to a good chunk of what admittedly little I'm leaving behind.
As much as is possible I'm trying to follow out the idiom of a bird leaves the water undisturbed.

I'm sorting out a will too. Not much to leave but remembering the few friends I have.

 

[sasshimi]

I wrote a cliche suicide note, left it in my room like an idiot, and it landed me in the hospital. I will still write a note but I will leave it on my body when I eventually ctb. I just have to figure out how my body will be found.

 

[kingkong57]

I wrote a cliche suicide note, left it in my room like an idiot, and it landed me in the hospital. I will still write a note but I will leave it on my body when I eventually ctb. I just have to figure out how my body will be found.

Same here. I'm not leaving a note. No one to leave one to, but , and no guilt here, I hope my estranged family realise what abandonment does to a person.
Im sectioned at the moment, stupid phone call for help whilst in the bath almost hitting the brachial…. Didn't say I was attempting just asked for an emergency appointment and before I know it police are at my door.
CO or slicing the brachial is my way out once I'm out of here.
I wish you peace and a happy exit if you ctb. Do you mind me asking your chosen method?

 

[sasshimi]

Same here. I'm not leaving a note. No one to leave one to, but , and no guilt here, I hope my estranged family realise what abandonment does to a person.
Im sectioned at the moment, stupid phone call for help whilst in the bath almost hitting the brachial…. Didn't say I was attempting just asked for an emergency appointment and before I know it police are at my door.
CO or slicing the brachial is my way out once I'm out of here.
I wish you peace and a happy exit if you ctb. Do you mind me asking your chosen method?

Not at all, I'm aiming to ctb by full-suspension with the bonus of drinking liquor for curbing SI. Truth be told, it is hard to get in the right headspace for ctb. I've had a few close calls where I'd get the determination only for me to get caught or discouraged. Though the number of attempts I've had does reinforce shame and guilt.

 

[LeGuitarist]

First time I wrote a note, but after that I just gave up. I don't really see the point in writing one ngl

 

[ARW3N]

The act of suicide itself speaks much louder than words about my disenchantment with life.

 

[RaccoonTrash]

I've written so many notes, I just hope I can make up my mind what to keep on me when I CTB

 

[eternalmelancholy]

The act of suicide itself speaks much louder than words about my disenchantment with life.

Words can be misconstrued, ignored or even used against you. Actions speak louder than words. There is no more definitive action than killing yourself.

 

[Lost Magic]

I have a funny t-shirt with a smiley face that says, be happy I will wear that and pin a short note on my notice board. I will also give the authorities a contact number for my executor.

 

[Ashmedai]

Yes, I will. There is a girl that I loved (without return, obviously) and I would like herbto know that I cared. And then there is my mother, when I was a child she took care of me, I should mention her briefly.

 

[Wait-Bus]

Yes - Your actions can't be explained in any meaningful way, but you can apologize for the hurt you have caused.

 

[GrizzlyGrapefruit]

I'm on the fence, but I'm leaning towards leaving a note.

The biggest contributing factor to me wanting to CTB is that I had a really bad reaction to Accutane that left me with permanent health problems. I've heard that organizations won't attribute a suicide to a drug unless they have solid proof. With that being said, I don't want to leave it to chance. I want the world to know that I was pushed to the edge by this prescription.

If I leave that in a note, however, I don't feel right now writing anything else out, so I'd probably write a bit more thanking those who were understanding and really try to get across that I did try my best (and honestly I still am, but things aren't looking great ).

A few years prior when I was at what I thought was my rock bottom, I wrote individual letters to everyone. Since so much time has passed and so much has changed, I ripped them up and threw them away. Don't think I'll be doing that again though. I think a general note addressed to anyone who cares is good enough.

 

[hellispink]

I don't owe anyone anything, much less explanations. All everyone did while I was alive was hurt me. They will forget me regardless. So why would I bother if no one cares.