Venting Is anyone else in a similar situation?

[WhySoSad55555]

Sorry, if my writing isn't very good or werid. I don't write a lot, so my writing might be choppy or inconsistent, sorry. It's 2 am for me right now, I feel very bad emotionally and I'm on medication for my head jerking or tics. They aren't helping whatsoever, only giving me stomach pain and strong urges to always eat. But my mom says i can't stop taking them, because the doctor's appointment is in a month, so two more weeks of this. No one is ever there for me or to check up on how I'm doing. No one cares about me or even know I exist for that matter, yet they don't want me to ctb because they "care about me" I don't even have a plan or date yet, I'm like slowly losing my mind everyday, wondering why I'm still here and why I don't have a proper method yet. I'm just so tired or drowsy all the time, dehydrated and so clumsy. Btw, this is my very first post, sorry again if my writing is werid or if I'm ranting. But does anyone feel like no one is ever there for them? And has that made you grow to hate or not care for them? For me I hate my family a lot, and feel that nothing would change if I wasn't there.

 

[AJAX]

hello......i will will be honest, I do feel like that a lot. Its such an annoying feeling but yet it can sometimes be a bliss. You get to do anything you want without people judging you or really caring what happens.

Ill tell you a story about something i did out of my parent negligence. one very cold winter day about two years ago my best friend invited me to eat magical brownies XD i had never tried any drug before and i quickly accepted. Fast-forward at night, we met up at his house and ate the brownies. Nothing happened so we decided to go to the convince store. When we got there, i started to have the worse choking hazard attack i have ever had. I couldn't breath at all, i was even turning red. My friend called emergency as fast as he could and in a few minuets they were there to pick me up.

I went to the hospital and they checked me up and determined i was just having a panic attack that was worsened due to the marijuana XD my parent were LIVID at me, they yelled at me so loud that the nurses at the hospital had to ask them to quite down. After that they just left. I had to stay three days at the hospital to secure my well being (i think they made me stay more than a day due to my self harm). But on the last day my friend ( who gave the brownie) sneaked me out of the hospital through a window. And we went to get some ultra monsters even though i wasn't supposed to drink energy drinks cause of meds.



I know that was pretty long story but i told you about it so you could see the benefits of not having people who care. I know it doesn't feel nice, but what can we do. We cant change our families, we were sadly cursed with shitty parents. Try to take advantage from stuff like these. I hope you feel better and that my story was at least a bit entertaining cause they sure were one of the best days for me. Cheers and good luck!

 

[FishRain3469]

I also feel that way a lot in my life. Sorry your medication is making you feel that way, what kind are you taking? I have also been on some in the past which made me nauseated and very hungry.

It's also 220am for me right now and I need to get some sleep for work, but I'll comment more later on. Thoughts and prayers to you always.