Is anxiety ruining ur life too?

[tears and vomit]

Holy shit, I'm constantly scared and my brain keeps coming up with new fears. I'm starting college soon, after being in Canada for a year, and I've changed my name and everything about myself. But I'm so scared that I'm going to run into people who've seen me at my worst. I'm terrified of what people will think of me.

I'm scared because my parents are struggling with money, and it's hard to work while in college. On top of that, I'm scared about my grades. I don't know if I'll ever make it. My past mistakes keep haunting me over and over, and these thoughts won't stop. I don't know what to do.
Yes, I'm unmedicated, and healthcare fucking sucks here, so it would be extremely hard for me to get on medication. Does anyone else struggle with this? Please tell me I'm not alone.

I keep telling myself that I'm going to ctb anyway to try to calm myself down, but it doesn't work anymore. :(
I just feel like I don't belong anywhere

 

[unluckysadness]

You're not alone. Anxiety ruined my life too since I was 16. It begun with huge agoraphobia and now I'm 43 with the same problems (even worse because I'm seriously ill with a rare fucking disease. You're very young, so I hope you can try some therapy or meds. In my time, nobody took care about me and I didn't took any med. No psychiatrist. In late 90's people didn't give a shit with mental illness. Now I literally missed my life and I'm in constant pain. Alone, never had a partner or real friends. That's why I'm here and CTB is the only solution for me. But I'm anxious about what happens after death. Shitty karma !!

 

[diopdawe]

Anxiety ruined my life. I was successful in my career, had a nice salary, a loving wife and a great appartement. Then all of a sudden, my anxiety levels were through the roof. I couldn't sleep and developed panick attacks. After a couple of months not being able to sleep and having panick attacks every day, I was fired from my job, my wife left me and I lost the appartement too. I feel so shit every day, I am a regular user of Clonezapam but will probably CTB because I lost everything...

 

[TBONTB]

Anxiety ruined my life. I was successful in my career, had a nice salary, a loving wife and a great appartement. Then all of a sudden, my anxiety levels were through the roof. I couldn't sleep and developed panick attacks. After a couple of months not being able to sleep and having panick attacks every day, I was fired from my job, my wife left me and I lost the appartement too. I feel so shit every day, I am a regular user of Clonezapam but will probably CTB because I lost everything...

Anxiety is so hard. Hope things improve

 

[Busridin'26]

Anxiety is ruining my life amd definitely part of my reasons to ctb. I've found some things helpful over the years but eh....

Wishing everyone struggling some peace and ease ️

 

[BRAINWORMS]

Anxiety is a bigger motivator for me killing myself than depression. I'm tired of being afraid all the time of things it seems like everyone else can handle with ease. You definitely aren't alone.

I hope you are able to find effective treatment if possible. I've had moments where anxiety has dissipated with treatment and they've been beautiful. It just always seems to make its way back to me.

 

[tears and vomit]

Anxiety is a bigger motivator for me killing myself than depression. I'm tired of being afraid all the time of things it seems like everyone else can handle with ease. You definitely aren't alone.

I hope you are able to find effective treatment if possible. I've had moments where anxiety has dissipated with treatment and they've been beautiful. It just always seems to make its way back to me.

yeah depression is manageable but anxiety makes me feel like I'm dying without actually dying
I hope we make it out of here <3

 

[cowplantabduction]

Anxiety is ruining my life too. It leaves me physically ill and incapable of doing anything. I ended up failing all my college classes, losing my financial aid, and having to drop out. I was fired from my last job due to an anxiety attack. Now I'm about to become homeless.

 

[Ligottian]

Yes. I ruined it a long time ago.

 

[Parnate]

You're not alone. Anxiety ruined my life too since I was 16. It begun with huge agoraphobia and now I'm 43 with the same problems (even worse because I'm seriously ill with a rare fucking disease. You're very young, so I hope you can try some therapy or meds. In my time, nobody took care about me and I didn't took any med. No psychiatrist. In late 90's people didn't give a shit with mental illness. Now I literally missed my life and I'm in constant pain. Alone, never had a partner or real friends. That's why I'm here and CTB is the only solution for me. But I'm anxious about what happens after death. Shitty karma !!

My family too ignored my mental health issues for twelve years. Later when they got to know I was suicidal that is when they did something.

 

[ropeburns&migranes]

I feel this so much. I was diagnosed with anxiety after my first attempt and even though I'm now medicated it doesn't really help much with the constant thoughts and paranoia, only the physical symptoms. Anxiety has prevented me from living a normal life and connecting with others so I'm glad it'll finally be over soon.
I'm starting post-secondary school again after 12 months of failing my first year and I'm terrified. I plan on ctb very very soon and hopefully this time it wont be a bust.