Interested to see who were happy previously vs who were never happy?

[long4rest]

I was relatively happy, 10 years ago my health started to turn. Things have deteriorated and here I am. Time to get out while the getting is getting good.

 

[Astronauta]

Relativamente feliz antes de ficar incapacitado pela "vacina" covid. Eu tive meu quinhão de momentos de merda ao vivo, mas sempre fui saudável, sempre tive o suficiente para comer, um teto sobre minha cabeça, consegui um emprego bom e estável alguns anos atrás. Agora não tenho mais nada, exceto o teto sobre minha cabeça e a comida. Mas estou basicamente incapacitado, não tenho mais dinheiro, não posso mais trabalhar e nada me traz alegria. Tudo foi arruinado por uma má decisão e eu não tenho uma segunda chance :

Sinto muito por isso. Me encontro na mesma situação.

 

[lugerepair]

I've been happy before but it tends to be short-lived.

 

[Hope:-)]

Happy until I was 18- that's when I started taking medication.

 

[GrumpyFrog]

My life was quite a rollercoaster ride, but I can't say I was never happy. It's not that I was super excited about life all the time - I'm not even sure that's how happiness works. But I had happy moments and I was mostly content with my life. In my childhood. In my youth, after I went to therapy, got better and got my first ok job. Even just a year ago, when I resolved my extreme financial problems - I was so content, I felt more confident, I was trying new hobbies, helping people at work, I had friends, I enjoyed the little things.
But now everything is completely screwed.

 

[Astronauta]

Minha vida era normal , estava vivendo um momento muito bom na minha vida. Fui tomar a vacina da covid19 e minha vida foi arruinada. Meu ctb é devido a vacina da covid19.

 

[eternalvoid]

Since I was very little, as early as I can remember, I've felt this deep void inside me, an emptiness inside of me, it persisted my entire life.

While I had period of times in my life where things were going well, I had things that would normally make anyone else happy, yet I always felt empty.

I look at something like a beautiful sunset and feel sad and empty, whereas normal people would look at it and feel joy.

I don't think I ever had a chance.

 

[TheManIllNeverBe]

It's come and gone throughout my life. I was happy until I started school and got bullied relentlessly for my Tourettes. Changed schools in middle school and fell in with a really good group of peers, was happy for almost 20 years... through college... my first job. Then a serious car accident and lots of psych meds screwed it all up again. Still had some happy times after that but fewer and further between. Then about 2 years ago I got taken off of one of my meds (sertraline) too quickly and had a breakdown... ended up in a psych hospital. Haven't recovered or been truly happy since then. With each passing day the possibility feels further and further away.

 

[ever so lonely]

never happy, no matter what job i had, no matter what i studied, no matter who i dated no matter where i lived, life has no inherent value and it is full of shit, pretending to care when you dont, for the sake of keeping up appearances, nup, never been happy, and if i have it was always ever fleeting, happiness is like that elusive fly you can never quite catch, always out of reach, many aspire to be happy but how many of us ever truly are ?, seldom i would wager, this world is hellish mate, now i dont participate or contribute in any meaningful way, my only goal is to cbt the sooner the better, it is why i joined, i am so tired and exhausted of the false pretence, i just want to go, i joined so as maybe somebody could assist me with a reliable source of n or sn i am willing to pay in british pounds if so, but as for happiness buds it eludes me, and i am guessing most of us or we wouldnt be here me thinks, nothing about society is positive so much hostility and hatred and divisiveness and i just dont care for it, please end man, this suffering is too much, death is the eternal sleep i wish for it so much

 

[actual_fox]

I would say that I was happy in the past, mostly before school (lots of responsibilities and bullies), my mom says she would never see my smile on photos. It makes sense. From then I was falling into low grade and then to weapon grade depression. And now I am bipolar going through cycles of suffering and hope to despair.