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Cbt inevitable?

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Felodese

Felodese

Experienced
Mar 31, 2024
295
For at least all of my adult life I've felt that it's inevitable that I will eventually ctb, like there's no other way it could end. Anyone else feel the same?
 
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sserafim

sserafim

they say it's darkest of all before the dawn
Sep 13, 2023
9,013
It's inevitable for me. I've always felt like I was destined to die young and by ctb. I never even wanted to grow up or become an adult anyways. Unfortunately, I was forced to due to the passage of time
 
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Yuina

Yuina

Member
Apr 13, 2024
89
Absolutely. In fact, this was an exact thought I had a couple months ago around Christmas time.

No matter how much help I am given, I am always living with the thought that, inevitably, my cause of death will be [CTB].

That hasn't changed. I am especially sick of living knowing how much I've already missed out on that other people have done by my age.
 
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Werewolf.

Student
May 28, 2021
184
I was convinced I would and even gave myself a date. The date has not arrived yet (July 18, 2025) but I won't do it. I picked 18 July because someone really special took their own life and they were 30, the age I would be on that date as well. But I'm never going to do it. My religious beliefs stop me.
 
DeathOfKane

DeathOfKane

Member
Apr 5, 2024
66
It's inevitable for me. I've always felt like I was destined to die young and by ctb. I never even wanted to grow up or become an adult anyways. Unfortunately, I was forced to due to the passage of time
I feel the exact same. Personally feels like life is giving me bad experiences to push me to end it as fast as possible.
 
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sserafim

sserafim

they say it's darkest of all before the dawn
Sep 13, 2023
9,013
I feel the exact same. Personally feels like life is giving me bad experiences to push me to end it as fast as possible.
I just don't want to have to become a real adult or work for a living. I don't want to be a slave to the system. I'd rather die than do that. Why would I let myself get willingly exploited? I also don't want to live out middle age or old age. I don't see a point in that. I don't want to live beyond my mid 20s
 
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DeathOfKane

DeathOfKane

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Apr 5, 2024
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I just don't want to have to become a real adult or work for a living. I don't want to be a slave to the system. I'd rather die than do that. Why would I let myself get willingly exploited? I also don't want to live out middle age or old age. I don't see a point in that. I don't want to live beyond my mid 20s
I feel you. I didn't even want to make it to 18. I've gotten over that and clearly wasn't prepared for it. It seems like we're supposed to just do all this shit for no real reason and be okay with that.
 
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UmbraDweller

UmbraDweller

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Sep 15, 2023
140
Yes. Death is inevitable anyways. I don't get why is suicide such a big deal in this society.
 
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