I keep having more and more fear as I think about suicide. I started having nightmares and high levels of anxiety again. I have started getting panic attacks and tachycardia. I am constantly thinking about death and dying and the recent passing of my cat and the way my partner is desperate for me to get better.
But I way more afraid of living. I wake up every day being scared beyond reason of continuing in this life with the regrets I have. I do not want to try again, I just want a quick and painless exit.
But the nightmares and physical symptoms are haunting me. I don't want this, I don't want to keep going in life. Does anyone relate and were they able to do something which grounded them and reduced this? I feel like I have to go but I can't? I need to return to the calm and reserved feeling in once had
But I way more afraid of living. I wake up every day being scared beyond reason of continuing in this life with the regrets I have. I do not want to try again, I just want a quick and painless exit.
But the nightmares and physical symptoms are haunting me. I don't want this, I don't want to keep going in life. Does anyone relate and were they able to do something which grounded them and reduced this? I feel like I have to go but I can't? I need to return to the calm and reserved feeling in once had
