Venting In the whole world there isn't a single person for me

[Crematoryy]

Why should I dedicate myself to any human relationship, knowing that even after giving myself entirely, I could always be discarded without any importance? Simply put, the risk-reward ratio isn't worth it. Treat everyone with indifference, whether family or stranger; don't expose your fears, don't show your weaknesses, and don't love anyone, because no one is worthy of being loved.

The suicidal people on this forum often complain about the pain of not belonging anywhere or to anyone, but they forget that developing a neurochemical bond with humans means giving them control over your emotions. You can build meaning and trust around a person and choose them as a special being, only for them to hurt you in ways no one else could. They will shatter your heart without even bothering to explain; they will treat you coldly, and you will feel chills from receiving coldness from someone you expected warmth from.

It's not worth loving in this feverish world, even if it's your deepest desire. Reality doesn't support your feelings. People don't care about each other—even if they try to appear otherwise. The sooner you accept this, the less easily disappointed you become.

 

[Slark]

The problem is that we are social beings. Therefore, almost everyone has the desire to be loved. Your text reminded me of a song called "I Am a Rock" by Simon & Garfunkel. If you listen to it, you'll really relate.

 

[squiddedoutt]

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[alwayspissedoff]

one of the many things I hate about myself is how much I crave for connection.
like, I'll almost never like people at all, but when I do, they are everything to me, for better or for worse.
I hate it because for me it means suffering a lot when I notice I am not everything to them, and for them it means having to deal with me.

sometimes you gotta realize you may be the problem as well, the problem leading to your own suffering.

 

[Macedonian1987]

I lived for 39 years in a world that wasn't built for me. When i was younger i was desired by women, but my autism chased every single one of them. In the end i was and still am all alone.

Much uglier guys had success in finding love, but not me. This proves that autism is more repulsive towards non-autistic people than physical ugliness.

 

[violetforever]

one of the many things I hate about myself is how much I crave for connection.
like, I'll almost never like people at all, but when I do, they are everything to me, for better or for worse.
I hate it because for me it means suffering a lot when I notice I am not everything to them, and for them it means having to deal with me.

sometimes you gotta realize you may be the problem as well, the problem leading to your own suffering.

im the same exact way. its such an issue.

 

[alwayspissedoff]

Much uglier guys had success in finding love, but not me. This proves that autism is more repulsive towards non-autistic people than physical ugliness.

in my and many other people's experience, even towards some autistic people:

 

[Deathcrvsh]

one of the many things I hate about myself is how much I crave for connection.
like, I'll almost never like people at all, but when I do, they are everything to me, for better or for worse.
I hate it because for me it means suffering a lot when I notice I am not everything to them, and for them it means having to deal with me.

sometimes you gotta realize you may be the problem as well, the problem leading to your own suffering.

Same.

I tried it over and over again with romantic relationships and friendships. I am somehow not made for longer, close contact (for several reasons). So I made the decision to try to establish one anymore.

I get along very well with solitude but yeah... somehow the society isn't made for weird people.

 

[PanaxMan]

Why should I dedicate myself to any human relationship, knowing that even after giving myself entirely, I could always be discarded without any importance? Simply put, the risk-reward ratio isn't worth it. Treat everyone with indifference, whether family or stranger; don't expose your fears, don't show your weaknesses, and don't love anyone, because no one is worthy of being loved.

The suicidal people on this forum often complain about the pain of not belonging anywhere or to anyone, but they forget that developing a neurochemical bond with humans means giving them control over your emotions. You can build meaning and trust around a person and choose them as a special being, only for them to hurt you in ways no one else could. They will shatter your heart without even bothering to explain; they will treat you coldly, and you will feel chills from receiving coldness from someone you expected warmth from.

It's not worth loving in this feverish world, even if it's your deepest desire. Reality doesn't support your feelings. People don't care about each other—even if they try to appear otherwise. The sooner you accept this, the less easily disappointed you become.

I kinda support this but the chances just don't fit the narrative of 8 billion to millions within the existence of a nation. There is someone out there, it really depends if you are willing it find it. I don't mind not finding it as my life circumstances get worse and worse but thats your desicion to make