in reality it would be better if no life existed at all

[Darkover]

Born into this world is like being thrown into a hole that is deep enough that you spend your whole life trying to get out, in the way of a useless struggle without ever succeeding.

 

[FuneralCry]

Yes, only permanent non-existence is true perfection, I find it the most terrible tragedy how life even exists at all especially as nobody can be harmed by the absence of everything and there is no need for existence at all. More than anything I wish I never existed and I'd see it as better that existence is erased no matter what, I see no point or value to existing as a conscious being who is capable of suffering so immensely in an existence so undesirable and futile. Having the ability to exist truly is the most hopeless abomination, I'd always prefer to eternally not exist than to suffer for decades just to be tormented by old age and die anyway.