In principal I want to live but my body is like a cage

[last.butterfly]

I've had issues with my physical health since I'm 13/14 and back then I promised myself I would find out what the reason was. Fast forward 14 years and I haven't, the myriad of symptoms that have broken my spirit can not be defined into a diagnosis by any doctor, matter of fact I'm being told I'm perfectly fine and I'm just imagining everything.
Unfortunately by now it's too late, even if I had the magic pill now the damage is done, I'm somewhat so broken that I can't even pretend to be a normally functioning person anymore and I'm sick of living like this.
I have gone through the stages of grieving the normal life I will never have and I'm done.
I'm not opposed to life itself but just not like this and I wish I could've lived it healthy and developing normal like I was supposed to.
Has anyone else decided to end it over their physical condition? I just feel like I'm so alone in this

 

[Wolff603]

I saw a statistic somewhere that 25% of people who commit suicide have shown or had reasons relating to physical health/bodily image. You definitely aren't alone, and the entire physical health industry, or the foundation of it all is ruled by ignorant people who make fun of people for how they look, even if there are many underlying factors to it. No two people are the same in terms of physical health, which shows why people are often uninformed about it. As for the doctors, I feel arent even the highest authority in diagnosing. At the age of like 14, my doctors couldn't find any issues with me, and it was up to me alone to do so I wouldn't rely on them completely. I know what you're going through bro.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

Welcome to SaSu!

I'm sorry you have to go through this.