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Afterglow

Afterglow

I miss the version of me who enjoyed being alive.
Feb 22, 2025
393
@StrugglingSienna was my best friend who I met on here. She was brilliant, caring, funny, and a general joy to be around. I'm glad we met when we did, and had the chance to do so in person before she passed.
 
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Liebestod

Liebestod

Waiting for death
Mar 15, 2025
728
@anonymous2025 rip
 
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sweetdrowning

sweetdrowning

living ghost
Jan 2, 2026
129
@binkleshpoo i miss you
 
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Liebestod

Liebestod

Waiting for death
Mar 15, 2025
728
@NellyGoes rip
 
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_Gollum_

_Gollum_

I wish the ring had never come to me
Mar 9, 2024
1,762
Thinking of @Anonymousa / Namelesa today </3
 
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Fadenself00_

Fadenself00_

Tribute to GasMonkey coming soon™
Sep 21, 2025
404
It is often a person's abundance of empathy, thoughtfulness and caring which can make life so fucking painful and unbearable. All the second hand, vicarious trauma, all the horrifying knowledge of the depths of suffering, which is often suffering inflicted by evil and stupidity... all the powerlessness and futility.
Literally why psych med damage happens.. Thanks for writing that. 🤗
 
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Mrs. T-800

Mrs. T-800

schwarzenegger fangirl ♡t-800 from t2 is my love♡
Nov 25, 2025
158
@HeyBoogahJr, I didn't know you well, but I so much wanted you to live. You were a caring, sweet, and calming presence, and it was an honor and a privilege to hear your heart out. I wanted you to stay so badly. You seemed so young and full of life and hope. Thank you for letting me into your life for a time and trusting me with the feeling of not thriving. I think, if you'll live, a friendship can thrive between us. But almost a month now, and nothing. I think of you. Love, your older sister on the cyberspace
 
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GlassMoon

GlassMoon

~
Nov 18, 2024
404
@evanescent_eva and @Anonymousa I still remember you. And @Chemi.
 
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flowerbomb

flowerbomb

Student
Nov 28, 2024
129
I dont want to mention your name here in case you wouldnt like it. We didnt get the chance to say goodbye. 😔 I so much hope you have found your peace now. And you still write songs where ever your soul is now.
 
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peacebenow

Too much has happened.
Apr 26, 2026
558
I miss you and think of you often. I won't mention your online name here as I feel you would not like that. I want to tell you things. I'm sad that I did not get a goodbye from you but I do understand. Wishing you peace wherever you are my friend.
 
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Isolatedloner

I’m not in this world, I’m in my head.
Dec 14, 2024
149
I've been talking to someone here and they plan to now die by suicide. I feel so sad. Hopefully my post wasn't too repetitive but I need help being heard about this sadness. I'm not dying by suicide like many here have and will. I don't blame them. I'm just sad right now.
 
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JoeFailure

Wizard
Apr 29, 2019
660
I aspire to be added to this list
 
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SASU-KE

SASU-KE

How I get up when I hear the alarm ↑
Nov 26, 2025
1,123
My friend @Emerita passed away recently. We came to know each other quite well before she passed and we spent a lot of time talking. She had a very difficult life. She was a strong person and a good friend.

I enjoyed her company a lot. She was creative and kind. She loved flowers. The ghost pipe was her favorite. White orchids were her second. I got to growing orchids myself because of her. I've come to enjoy it as a hobby.


She was good at creative design and created many nice T-shirts and even a Sasu bus ticket,

IMG 4370
 
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Isolatedloner

I’m not in this world, I’m in my head.
Dec 14, 2024
149
I do hope my person im talking to her to post her goodbye post because I need to hear that she intends to die and if she dies by suicide after long period of not being online I will feel a sense of ease that she is at peace. Her son died by suicide and she will likely die by it too. I'm so sad about this all.
 
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Passenger4224

Passenger4224

I appreciate everything that can kill me.
Mar 8, 2026
342
I would like to add @Kamaainakupua . Never got the chance to talk with her much before I was hospitalized and suddenly vanished. By the time I felt ok enough to come back, she was gone. Not sure if she CTB'd, but the message below her username suggests it. Wherever she is now, I hope it's a better place.

Two other recent users that I never interacted with but their stories meant something to me:

@fightclub17 - Surprised she hasn't been mentioned yet. I still see her name mentioned sometimes, her story left an impact on so many users on the forum.

@gardenoflonely - Posted a goodbye thread last week and hasn't logged on since. It was heartbreaking reading about what she went through.

Hopefully I'm next.
 
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buriedinmyhead

buriedinmyhead

If pain can purify the heart, mine will be pure
Mar 24, 2026
181
@TheTwelthRootOfTwo ctbed soon after I joined. I'd interacted with him a few times in the forums, and he always seemed nice. I hope he's found peace
 
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Surek

Surek

>_<
Aug 26, 2025
133
@EternalHunger, @jinmaopoison, @Liseli, rip...
 
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dirkw83

Student
Mar 4, 2026
154
@DanLip22 bro I hope you're doing well up there. irish dude, just joined here one day, few days later ordered SN, took it and that's how he went. 👊 Godspeed friend.
 
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sadbh

Experienced
Apr 4, 2026
215
@madwoman made me realize I shouldn't take people for granted. They were smart, courageous, and kind.
 
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SNastablesalt

I am the face of loves rage
Oct 6, 2023
220
@madwoman made me realize I shouldn't take people for granted. They were smart, courageous, and kind.
miss them so bad . both of my swiftie friends on here caught their bus and I just can't handle it
@AmericanMary
@Liseli
@kittyswift
@madwoman
you are all loved and mourned by me daily. I hope you know that wherever you are
 
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TooFarAway

I've been in mental pain my entire life
Jun 27, 2026
10
@TheWalrus

I was originally on here years ago, and we became best friends. We spoke on the phone almost every day. It was four years ago the other week. I miss him terribly.
 
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HollowSoul

HollowSoul

Member
Apr 14, 2026
89
@madwoman made me realize I shouldn't take people for granted. They were smart, courageous, and kind.
Same. @madwoman posts left me a mark. Everytime I listen to TS i think of her.

And also @NotSoEnchanted the LOVE for her dog resonated so much with me

I remember them a lot even if a never met them in person and didnt talk at all

Hope they are resting well
 
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Forveleth

I knew I forgot to do something when I was 15...
Mar 26, 2024
4,558
Thinking of @Anonymousa / Namelesa today </3
Had no idea they passed. Damn, dude. I have screenshots of them using the "Interesting" reaction when people posted random-ass stuff. Always made me laugh. They were so nice. I hope they found peace. 🕯️
 
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