In love with the chaos

[onmywaytothebusstop]

Is it just me or are there other people that love the kick of chaos?

The idea of commiting suicide but still seeing people trying to save you (but fail) is very appealing to me. The chaos of being found, carried to an ambulance etc..

 

[mirrorman2]

i think we come from very different sides of the suicidal spectrum. i abhor the emotional fallout my death will cause and that is one of the few things keeping me here. i have no desire to hurt others emotionally or physically just because i feel dejected from life and did something about it. that is my own decision. that doesn't stop people from being hurt either way. i think an ethical suicide in which minimal people are hurt is best. this is why i've been trying to push others away for some time.

 

[Carrot]

i think we come from very different sides of the suicidal spectrum. i abhor the emotional fallout my death will cause and that is one of the few things keeping me here. i have no desire to hurt others emotionally or physically just because i feel dejected from life and did something about it. that is my own decision. that doesn't stop people from being hurt either way. i think an ethical suicide in which minimal people are hurt is best. this is why i've been trying to push others away for some time.

Same. I don't want to cause harm, I just don't enjoy living for many reasons.

The ambulance could be used on somebody else. My organs, blood could go to somebody who appreciates life. I'd gladly give this away in exchange for a peaceful death.

 

[onmywaytothebusstop]

i think we come from very different sides of the suicidal spectrum. i abhor the emotional fallout my death will cause and that is one of the few things keeping me here. i have no desire to hurt others emotionally or physically just because i feel dejected from life and did something about it. that is my own decision. that doesn't stop people from being hurt either way. i think an ethical suicide in which minimal people are hurt is best. this is why i've been trying to push others away for some time.

Im not talking about close ones. I dont really have people around me and i feel like professionals are used to dealing with death
Also there is no wish to harm anyone. Im talking about the feeling of chaos itself
Also there is no wish to harm anyone. Im talking about the feeling of chaos itself