Imagining your funeral

[unloveable27]

I imagine my own funeral a lot and it's weirdly comforting. Anyone else?

 

[madeincruddy]

Sometimes. I mostly think about what people would say there. I don't really know what they'd come up with lol, it'd mainly be family there and I don't talk to them much

 

[charlavail]

i spend a lot of the day imagining what it would be like for other people, what they might feel, my funeral, etc. i was wrtiting today a list of important info for people to not leave things unanswered and one of the things i wrote is "don't spend too much $$$ on my funeral" because i would hate to continue to be a burden even after death.

 

[Quietist]

I've told my relatives a few times already that if I off myself, I don't want anybody pretending to be shocked or grieved.

I want them to party at my funeral or wake.

I want everybody dressed up nice, sparkling, and I want them to eat cake and drink wine.

 

[Exhausted546]

I'm extremely low-key. It horrifies me that I'd have a funeral and people would learn I killed myself,I hate it.

 

[walliwalli]

i wish; personally, the thought kind of makes me uncomfortable. i don't want to imagine what people would say about me. i'm sure it would be a terrible day for my family. i wish i could tell them that i don't need a funeral, but i'm sure there will be one anyways.

 

[TheTwelthRootOfTwo]

I have told my mom point blank that I do not want a funeral. She doesn't know I'm thinking of offing myself. It was brought up in another strange way. So, yeah. I don't want people moping over me (however many there would be anyway) saying sad things about why I killed myself.

 

[BlueLock]

Yes but it brings me no comfort. I don't think many people would show up and save for my immediate family I don't think anyone would mourn me.

 

[nitrogenous]

For me, I don't really imagine my funeral a lot, but more so thinking about what kind of urn I want to be in after I ctb I feel like doing so kind of passes the time well. I also think about writing my legally-binding will and living will a lot… For funeral itself, I just don't think anyone would come hence why I don't really imagine it a lot

 

[mmmwindowxcx]

I hate thinking about it. It brings me no comfort because it will be embarrassing. Nobody I have a good relationship with will even be there. Everyone will be able to see exactly why I wanted to die, I'm sure. One of the few things keeping me here is the fact I loathe most those people so much, I cannot let them have a space to come together and try to judge and intentionally misunderstand me like they've always done. Also all my photos are terrible, so....

 

[pelicanportal]

i made it explicitly clear in every suicide note that i have written that i do not want any kind of funeral, service, gathering, rememberance celebration, etc. all i can do is hope it would be respected.

 

[scoba32]

i made it explicitly clear in every suicide note that i have written that i do not want any kind of funeral, service, gathering, rememberance celebration, etc. all i can do is hope it would be respected.

bro i feel the same way why celebrate a life that the person themselves hated

 

[rainatthebusstop]

Honestly after the funeral I've been to I don't want one. Just chuck the body in the crematorium and be done with it.

But there will be one. Because people "loved me". Because people thought their "love" should have been enough to save me. Because they need to cope with something so horrible and despicable as me getting out of a situation that won't ever improve

 

[l1ablemistakes]

I find it both comforting and disturbing to imagine. Before I do it I'm gonna plan the service myself to take that stress away from my loved ones. But I often find myself watching sibling funeral speeches and it's honestly heartbreaking. My brother is one of my best friends and I've seen him attempt before, it was very traumatic for me. I'm the oldest, he's always had an older sister. It's him I imagine the most tbh. I don't even think he'd be able to deliver a speech…

And my parents, fuck. Think about that scene in hereditary. That would be my mother. I can't realistically imagine it without knowing how horrible and selfish I am. So I watch it and understand it logically but I can't allow myself to think of it any deeper.

I'm starting to distance myself from friends now. Hopefully they don't talk some bullshit about 'signs'. I'm leaving most of my stuff to them.

My partner wouldnt speak. He respects our relationship and bond too much to publicise anything I think. Any words would be for me and me only. I just have to hope he doesn't follow in my footsteps.

 

[Asya]

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[meddle]

i hate that i will get a funeral. i wish i could just disappear without a trace in the wild and decay naturally, or let animals and insects eat my corpse, let plants grow up on it. but i guess disappearing forever would be much more traumatic for my close ones, so i cant do it to them

 

[itsgone2]

I don't want or deserve one. I was at one where hundreds attended. A man that was beloved. Generous, kind, funny. Died too soon.
I'd have maybe ten people. I should have been struck down young. This world is cruel

 

[Campanella]

I hate the idea, I wish there were more I could do to guarantee I won't have one. It's the only thing that makes me hesitant about suicide. I've been thinking about seeking marriage just so someone else could be in charge of what happens to me after death.
I never had connection to or much contact with my family, only my father, the other parent kept me as a child sex slave above all. Everyone knows me by different names or never knew I was born in the first place. A funeral for me where they're in charge and participate in it would be a complete offense. My father's a pushover so it'd go straight to the wrong hands instead. What a joke.

 

[SoLowHollow48]

I'm down bad for a party. I don't want people crying. That's fucking disgusting. They're going to cry then turn around and say how much of a coward I am for ending it all.

I'm saving up for a funeral + afterparty with free flow drinks. It's an important day for me. I want a celebration. A good one. Fireworks, DJ, and shit.

 

[Katam]

I will specify in my note that I want to be cremated and have my ashes thrown out into a lake, I want to make my process as cheap and fast as possible and I hope once the time comes my family will understand and dont spend money on something that equals to a pile of burned garbage.

 

[cookji]

I'd rather not have a funeral. There's no one who would come anyway

 

[Black Sheep One]

I wish to be cremated. The remains place in a brown gallon jug. Burry the jug. In time, no one will remember me or the jugs location. As for the funeral, I do not care much. I will be unable to spiritually attend.

 

[Liebestod]

I've been imagining my own funeral a lot recently.

 

[EndingEagle]

I do that too and feel kind of bad for The cost the burial casket body handling ceremony food the lot you put it in tombstone flowers thats thousands i really dont want my parents to go through that also its sort of disgusting imagining an autopsy on my body unavoidable unfortunately but still eugh and yet the thought of peace eternal peace from this life is among the most beautiful ones in existance so yeah in do kind of wonder where my both parents and grandparents hometown or my current City i probably would want the hometown.

 

[JustBe]

Easy to imagine, like 10 people total if I'm lucky. Only my parents and my brother if not.
Just like a family diner but everyone is sad.

 

[fairygirl184]

ive actually got a note in my phone with outfit options, song options and a list of people from my past that i don't want to be allowed entry because i KNOW the type of shit they will try to pull

 

[buriedinmyhead]

Not exactly the same, but I do imagine my body being found a lot, and I imagine myself on the autopsy table. IDK why

 

[Norf I Guess]

Sometimes, but I hate the idea that not one person I truly care about would be there, just half-estranged family. I can't work up the nerve to tell them I'd never want one, but I don't see a reason to have one.

 

[a-lien]

not really.. i mean it's kind of weird for me, I don't know if there is a funeral... I think so..

But I don't think that there will be friends, or contacts of people I had in the last 10 years

would they have a look on my phone and call maybe random people, to tell them ?
I don't think so... and would I even like this , if some of them would be there ? not everyone that is in my phone...
So would be a lonely funeral of a lonely person. that's it.

Because of this, I don't need to think about it much, what people would say..
Sometimes I'M thinking of ... is there a song, ....but it's hard, that would be more of an whole concert ;) ( and I can not decide which songs, the one must have song is pretty long and sad and quite and goes 10 minutes lol and if there are really some people, then it would be really sad for them, there is no lyric, but it is really sad song.... it's the song of my life )

mayne years ago I was thinking, maybe I need to write that they need to invite X X ... but those people are gone now.. so I won't write this..
I mean it would be nice if maybe .... two of them would be there, but it would be horrible for them, because there were no contact, and they lost contact to me, so maybe better they are not there and don't know it....I really don't think that it's realistic, that they will be there.
so it would a surprise if there is someone or not.. if they call numbers of my phone or not...

I will only leave a note, that none of my plushies should be at my grave, burned, or should be burried with me.. that's the only thing, I will mention. and I'M worried about. that would be horrible :(

 

[ForgetIExist]

I imagine my own funeral a lot and it's weirdly comforting. Anyone else?

I don't want a funeral. Ideally people just keep on going like I never existed. I low-key wanna disappear when I die so my fuck ass parents don't have an open casket funeral where people oggle my corpse. Not that I'd be around to care, I just hate them. I hate the idea that people will feel sorry for them. If there's anything after this, I don't want anything to do with them ever again. I know my body would be found eventually though. I hope it gets burned.