smallcow4rd
youthinkyouknowme
- Dec 20, 2025
- 4
I cant sh
i cant cut myself even if i try
Im scared to try my ctb method, because i dont want to end up with mayor brain damage
i cant make art anymore
i cant do nothing right, I keep fucking up and up and up
nobody takes me seriously irl and only my friends that literally cannot help me at all (dont blame them) care but, they really shouldnt.
they really shouldnt because theyre better than me, im a fucking idiot why the shit are they trying to reassure me.
im so inmensely incredibly ugly that when i step outside I know im a shit stain in everyones visual range.
and when I tell my brother that "hey i might be depressed, this days have been shit"
he says its basically my fault for being a neet most of the time.
maybe it is my fucking fault, everything is my fault.
i wish i could just end myself quickly but im so much of a coward that I cant even hurt myself succesfully even when i would love to tear my skin off because i deserve it.
Im tired, so tired that i cannot even try anything today. I want to ctb so bad but i just get so exhausted i cant even step out of my bed.
I even started praying so whoever is up there can please kill me in my sleep.
thats it, im pathetic. And I will keep laughing and distracting to keep myself alive even when I know i dont deserve anything at all.
not even breathing
i cant cut myself even if i try
Im scared to try my ctb method, because i dont want to end up with mayor brain damage
i cant make art anymore
i cant do nothing right, I keep fucking up and up and up
nobody takes me seriously irl and only my friends that literally cannot help me at all (dont blame them) care but, they really shouldnt.
they really shouldnt because theyre better than me, im a fucking idiot why the shit are they trying to reassure me.
im so inmensely incredibly ugly that when i step outside I know im a shit stain in everyones visual range.
and when I tell my brother that "hey i might be depressed, this days have been shit"
he says its basically my fault for being a neet most of the time.
maybe it is my fucking fault, everything is my fault.
i wish i could just end myself quickly but im so much of a coward that I cant even hurt myself succesfully even when i would love to tear my skin off because i deserve it.
Im tired, so tired that i cannot even try anything today. I want to ctb so bad but i just get so exhausted i cant even step out of my bed.
I even started praying so whoever is up there can please kill me in my sleep.
thats it, im pathetic. And I will keep laughing and distracting to keep myself alive even when I know i dont deserve anything at all.
not even breathing
