Venting I'm very, very scared

[doublecupj]

I feel the day is coming soon that I will ctb.

I'm scared. I'm scared of failing the attempt, I'm scared of dying, I'm scared of the pain, I'm scared of what will happen with my family and how they will deal with the emotions. And I don't know how to deal with these fears except to just feel them. Sometimes that's all we can do.

Just sharing my honest, open, very human moment with you all. I'm scared and that's okay.

 

[アホペンギン]

I understand, i am also afraid of ctbing, the pain and the problems that it will cause among my family.

 

[FuneralCry]

To me it's understandable having fears, suicide just isn't straightforward after all. But anyway I wish you the best.

 

[phersper]

I understand, i am also afraid of ctbing, the pain and the problems that it will cause among my family.

I feel exactly 100% like you, planning on going next week. I'm terrorized.