Venting i'm unlikeable/unlovable.

[alwayspissedoff]

I know there must be something wrong with me, I must be broken. why do people who meet me not like me, specially when I like them? I don't know if it's just the way that I am, the impression I give, or idk. the amount of people who I've talked to and end up abandoning me is depressing for me.
even people who I've spent months talking, and that are also autistic like me, just decide to leave me without even saying goodbye?
even... very special people do that, which just breaks my heart.
if they just told me what I did wrong, if I did anything wrong at all.
maybe I should just accept the fact that I'll always feel alone.
and well, maybe I deserve it. maybe I don't deserve anything good for being me, if anything at all.

 

[Dandelion's]

I know there must be something wrong with me, I must be broken. why do people who meet me not like me, specially when I like them? I don't know if it's just the way that I am, the impression I give, or idk. the amount of people who I've talked to and end up abandoning me is depressing for me.
even people who I've spent months talking, and that are also autistic like me, just decide to leave me without even saying goodbye?
even... very special people do that, which just breaks my heart.
if they just told me what I did wrong, if I did anything wrong at all.
maybe I should just accept the fact that I'll always feel alone.
and well, maybe I deserve it. maybe I don't deserve anything good for being me, if anything at al

Ive felt the same way for god knows how long.

 

[Kokonoe]

I know there must be something wrong with me, I must be broken. why do people who meet me not like me, specially when I like them? I don't know if it's just the way that I am, the impression I give, or idk. the amount of people who I've talked to and end up abandoning me is depressing for me.
even people who I've spent months talking, and that are also autistic like me, just decide to leave me without even saying goodbye?
even... very special people do that, which just breaks my heart.
if they just told me what I did wrong, if I did anything wrong at all.
maybe I should just accept the fact that I'll always feel alone.
and well, maybe I deserve it. maybe I don't deserve anything good for being me, if anything at all.

i can relate a lot.
personally i've just given up and accepted that i'm unlovable/unlikeable and will always be alone. and that i'm inherently worthless, which is why i get treated as such, bc i'm just worth less than everyone else, not even really able to be considered human.
i just isolate and try to find ways to cope with living life completely alone and ways i can enjoy my own company.

 

[ugulamugula]

I can relate to you. Atp i have just accepted it

 

[alwayspissedoff]

i'll never be truly liked by anyone.

 

[Archness]

People have their variance, together like a bellcurve.
But a few are outside and away from the center.
Clearly seen by me, outside,
as they cannot peer outside for me.

There's still not just me out here,
but an open country, with counties between us.

To see either the crowd, or the distance, is such a lonesome feeling.
Rejected, far, too different to connect, I can only accept it as my nature.

 

[Lamentice]

i can relate a lot.
personally i've just given up and accepted that i'm unlovable/unlikeable and will always be alone. and that i'm inherently worthless, which is why i get treated as such, bc i'm just worth less than everyone else, not even really able to be considered human.
i just isolate and try to find ways to cope with living life completely alone and ways i can enjoy my own company.

Same here for a lot of what you said

I know there must be something wrong with me, I must be broken. why do people who meet me not like me, specially when I like them? I don't know if it's just the way that I am, the impression I give, or idk. the amount of people who I've talked to and end up abandoning me is depressing for me.
even people who I've spent months talking, and that are also autistic like me, just decide to leave me without even saying goodbye?
even... very special people do that, which just breaks my heart.
if they just told me what I did wrong, if I did anything wrong at all.
maybe I should just accept the fact that I'll always feel alone.
and well, maybe I deserve it. maybe I don't deserve anything good for being me, if anything at all.

Humans are very bizarre, they could just be genuine and reciprocal, but instead people are insincere, cruelly selfish, and avoidant.