Venting I'M UGLY

[MOSTHATED]

I see myself in the mirror and think "wow do I seriously look like that?" I know that people I talk to feel the same. I do my best to avoid any reflective surface (it's kinda hard) I can't be around people without even thinking about how ugly I am. Ruins my mood everytime. I feel so disgusting and I feel uncomfortable in my body. I feel like god cursed me. Maybe god enjoys seeing people suffer. I have low self-esteem. I get very nervous when I'm next to a pretty woman I'm also pretty jealous of men with good looks not because I think they can get in a relationship but because if I had a better face, I wouldn't hate myself so much. I wish I could hide away from people so they wouldn't see me. I don't think I will ever be loved or have a relationship lol.

 

[extremelyugly]

I could've written this myself. Being ugly is basically the end of one's life before it even started; I know this firsthand. Add insult to injury if you're aslo an unlucky one who is XXY. Garbage.
My face is so asymmetrical that it looks like someone punched me in one side. . So recessed as well.
Just nothing to do in this planet anymore. I'm "glad" I finally realized this. No more cope. Now just a race to find the correct method.

 

[redmourningdove]

The way society elevates attractive people over unattractive people is so vain. But being attractive isn't the same thing as being loved and having a great relationship: many attractive people have a partner that only appreciates them for their body and not much else. There's no reason to be so jealous of them; those people have a lot of emotional maturity they need to gain as well. I'm sure you have attractive qualities in your own way, and there will be opportunities ahead where people will love you for so much more than just your face. Take care, I hope you find peace.

 

[tonicer]

I feel like god cursed me.

That's almost exactly how i feel. I don't know if it's karma because of what i did in my previous life or (in gaming terms) a debuff for something else i can do good. I have a pretty high IQ and can learn things quickly but I'd rather be stupid than this ugly. I don't believe god would be wicked like that so the people who say this here is hell might be right after all. I mean some humans do crazy insane inhumane things to other humans like rape, torture or even murder without any inkling or mercy/empathy and they sometimes even film themselves doing it or say that god made them do it or because the victim said something mean to them so it's okay to kill someone. I just want to go somewhere else where none of these crazy humans are. I wish i was rich and could buy whatever stuff i need for the next couple of years i have left and move somewhere as far away from humans as possible.