Venting i'm tired

[Mene Tame]

i feel empty, hollow, what i was is gone, all that's left is the trauma and all the stuff that's going on rn, everyday is the same, it's like an endless loop i feel like i'm drifting farther and farther away from reality, i might just end it all as i should have when i tried before, there's no love there's nothing for a scum like me, idc about those who "care about me" i know they're liars and they just want to keep me alive to make me suffer more, i might use my belts tied togheter as a hanging rope, it should work and the stupid survival instinct won't stop me from death, i can't feel anything, not even death brings me joy like it used to, idk anymore

i like to say that if i die i'll be reborn like a butterfly free from all this pain and suffering, i barely slept this night as i had ptsd attack, i probably won't sleep tonight either as i'm still scared by that
it's like a curse a curse i can break only with my death, it will dissolve alongside my soul

 

[Kempel556]

I can relate I wake up in the morning and be exausted because I have to endure another day of doing nothing just feeling sad for myself and be alone with my toughts that aren´t always the best, when you say theres no love for someone like you I think there is but its so hard to find, I tried already over and over again but I just give up because I feel tired and miserable, but that doesn´t mean it doesn´t exist.
I wish all the best for you :)

 

[Mene Tame]

i'm going in the school bathrooms
to cut myself, i always bring a cutter with me
maybe that'll help

 

[IfyouareamanWinston]

Maybe you could be reborn, I know for me I moved across the country and that change of environment helped for a few years until the economic weigh of survival in a world where it cost money to exist started to crush me.

 

[Mene Tame]

Maybe you could be reborn, I know for me I moved across the country and that change of environment helped for a few years until the economic weigh of survival in a world where it cost money to exist started to crush me.

Yeah maybe

 

[FuneralCry]

It must be awful having to suffer like that, I understand why you'd just wish to be free from it all, existing certainly can be so torturous.

 

[jussrav]

i feel empty, hollow, what i was is gone, all that's left is the trauma and all the stuff that's going on rn, everyday is the same, it's like an endless loop i feel like i'm drifting farther and farther away from reality, i might just end it all as i should have when i tried before, there's no love there's nothing for a scum like me, idc about those who "care about me" i know they're liars and they just want to keep me alive to make me suffer more, i might use my belts tied togheter as a hanging rope, it should work and the stupid survival instinct won't stop me from death, i can't feel anything, not even death brings me joy like it used to, idk anymore

i like to say that if i die i'll be reborn like a butterfly free from all this pain and suffering, i barely slept this night as i had ptsd attack, i probably won't sleep tonight either as i'm still scared by that
it's like a curse a curse i can break only with my death, it will dissolve alongside my soul

Yep this is me. Everyday the same torture I havent slept well for 6 weeks. I just exist now I am not in reality at all I am just watching others wishing I was like them. Want their happiness their peace.i really feel like hanging myself today like badly but I feel I will mess that up aswell. My lifes not worth living

 

[treetop.grazer]

Same here for at least a year now, my sleep is terrible as a consequence with only managing an hour or two of unbroken sleep each night, dreading every morning doing the same old sh*t at work in a job, which although is very well paid, is so unfulfilling, but with kids and bills to pay I can't really give it up.