CTB Fella
Experienced
- Dec 15, 2022
- 268
My nan recently passed, and she was all I had.
I let a lot of so called "family" members take the piss, but they preyed on the weak one (I have EUPD, OCD, and am now being screened for autism) and I failed my nan.
She was all I had.
I have no friends, family members, or anyone.
I'm thinking of taking my Stanley blade out, and cutting myself to ribbons. For three reasons:
1: To see how much pain I can take.
2: To punish myself.
3: To see the blood (last time, my place was like an abattoir.)
I'm an overdoser, and have been sectioned 28 times. Rooftops, bridges, overdosing in 136 suites, and so much more. I don't fuck about, but I'm not a "cutter." I have cut my wrists, many times, but I came to realise that it just doesn't work.
Anyway, I'm struggling hard at the minute.
Please respond.
I have no-one.
Tommy x.
I let a lot of so called "family" members take the piss, but they preyed on the weak one (I have EUPD, OCD, and am now being screened for autism) and I failed my nan.
She was all I had.
I have no friends, family members, or anyone.
I'm thinking of taking my Stanley blade out, and cutting myself to ribbons. For three reasons:
1: To see how much pain I can take.
2: To punish myself.
3: To see the blood (last time, my place was like an abattoir.)
I'm an overdoser, and have been sectioned 28 times. Rooftops, bridges, overdosing in 136 suites, and so much more. I don't fuck about, but I'm not a "cutter." I have cut my wrists, many times, but I came to realise that it just doesn't work.
Anyway, I'm struggling hard at the minute.
Please respond.
I have no-one.
Tommy x.
