Venting I’m the problem

[gnarly]

With no doubt in my mind I'm aware that everything is my fault. I can't even begin to love. I know nothing of it. i am broken. I lack the cogs to turn my head and realize my mistakes. And even then by the time I realize how much of a mistake I've made it's too late. They've already ran off. It doesn't hurt me that they leave. It hurts when they don't even say goodbye. I feel like I've caused such terrible damage that they can no longer face me. Maybe I'm truly not cut out for love. Perhaps in the end I am truly supposed to be alone. Myself and no one else. Not even just love.

 

[wham311]

Same. Completely aware of my shortcomings and nothing to do to fix it.

 

[Unbearable Mr. Bear]

Some people expect love to conform to their standards. Perhaps you are showing them love, but they are not returning it? Sometimes it makes us feel alone and like we're the evil ones, but it's just a matter of square peg, round hole.

That said, I believe you want to be cared too, and that's why you want love, and why you share it, right? Might be an equivocation.

 

[pollux]

I see. What are you doing to change that then?

 

[gnarly]

I see. What are you doing to change that then?

I don't know.

 

[Unbearable Mr. Bear]

I don't know.

Maybe it's more of a change of perspective than a change of action? Sometimes, I view people getting away from me like a great filter. Only the ones that truly like me for what I am are going to stay.

 

[cemeteryismyhome]

I can really relate to this. It's like my head is full of broken glass and I can't keep pieces from occasionally flying out and cutting someone, and they say "what the heck?!?" and are justifiably angry and avoid me. I don't do it on purpose, I try hard, it still happens. I've hurt so many people.

 

[ropeburns&migranes]

Apply this to all aspects of life, and I cannot begin to describe how relatable this is.

 

[Hollowman]

Very relatable unfortunately.