Help I'm tempted

[Dusk till dawn]

I'm alone at my home, nobody will interrupt me, i have so many drugs and i might just take all of them at once, that's without antidepressants and things that will fuck my nervous system, I'm very tempted to just eat all of that, I might just wake up in the hospital, but who knows? What if i won't wake up? What if i'll just sleep and while i'm fading away, what if i'll never wake up? Is it worth it? I'm very tempted and i can't think straight with all this temptations, i'm alone which makes this even better, should i do it or not?

 

[sanitystruggle]

It's a bad idea. It's hard to make out from the picture exactly what you have but the chances of it being effective, reliable and peaceful are basically zero. Depending on what is there you may end up with anything from nothing happening to landing yourself in the hospital with unpleasant symptoms. If there's paracetamol in there then you're running the risk of slow and painful liver damage.

 

[Dusk till dawn]

It's a bad idea. It's hard to make out from the picture exactly what you have but the chances of it being effective, reliable and peaceful are basically zero. Depending on what is there you may end up with anything from nothing happening to landing yourself in the hospital with unpleasant symptoms. If there's paracetamol in there then you're running the risk of slow and painful liver damage.

Honestly anything even paracetamol works, i don't care about the physical pain as long as it's not like burning in hydrochloric acid, and i once did that and had seizures, this time i know exactly what caused me seizures and such, there's also a lot of antiemetics here which makes this even better, there's opioids, BETA blockers, tricyclic antidepressants, benzos, i also have a bottle of alcohol which will make this more effective

 

[locked*n*loaded]

Doubtful you'd be able to get all of them in anyway before you'd start vomiting them out.

 

[Linda]

I'm alone at my home, nobody will interrupt me, i have so many drugs and i might just take all of them at once, that's without antidepressants and things that will fuck my nervous system, I'm very tempted to just eat all of that, I might just wake up in the hospital, but who knows? What if i won't wake up? What if i'll just sleep and while i'm fading away, what if i'll never wake up? Is it worth it? I'm very tempted and i can't think straight with all this temptations, i'm alone which makes this even better, should i do it or not?

Dont do it. You would be acting impulsively, and impulsive ctb is nearly always a bad idea. (And just downing a bunch of pills, when you have no idea what the result might be, is not smart either.) Take some time to get your thoughts together. If, after that, you are certain that you want to ctb, then plan it calmly and logically.
I see that you have been on this site for nearly 6 years. What made you decide today, apparently suddenly, to end it all? Have things been going unusually badly recently?

 

[Despondent_Fondant]

Honestly anything even paracetamol works, i don't care about the physical pain as long as it's not like burning in hydrochloric acid, and i once did that and had seizures, this time i know exactly what caused me seizures and such, there's also a lot of antiemetics here which makes this even better, there's opioids, BETA blockers, tricyclic antidepressants, benzos, i also have a bottle of alcohol which will make this more effective

Hey man PLEASE do NOT do this. I find that if other suicidal people are telling you not to do something it's normally not worth it :). I am 100% willing to be in DM's to maybe help talk you out of this. No one should have to go in such a panful and unpredictable way. Please dont :)

 

[EyesOfNight]

there's opioids, BETA blockers, tricyclic antidepressants, benzos

You can search this forum/the internet for what you have. Do a little bit of research and you could discover gold.