Venting I’m still awake unfortunately

[FuneralCry]

I wish I wasn't writing at this time, it's too late and I'm just want to sleep but instead I'm still awake. So tired of this existence and death truly is the only peace, I just want to be unaware for all eternity, I only find comfort in death. I hope I fall asleep soon. This site really is the opposite of comforting now, just a place to write down my thoughts, one doesn't even have to look far to find some kind of anti-suicide sentiment, humans do like to poison everything with their insensitivity and it's sad, I don't relate to others instead they just make me feel more alone so many of them just make me wish for death more.

And they don't take others pain seriously, it's so disgusting, they have no compassion, the suffering in this world is so real and I don't want to suffer, hopefully writing this makes me fall asleep as it's too painful to be conscious and aware. It's just insane to me how so many act like others are ill for wishing for this eternal sleep, no the true problem lies in existence, existence will always be the problem and I despise those who act otherwise, I just want sleep, I want eternal sleep to erase all the suffering existing causes.

 

[halleyscomet]

Same here, I want to sleep so badly but I just can't. I'm so tired.

 

[KillingPain267]

Me too, I am in fact afraid to fall asleep because I am afraid of the pain that awaits me again tomorrow. Such a strange trap.

 

[halleyscomet]

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Not everyone has the privilege to be able to ctb freely. There can be many obstacles in place that can make it practically impossible to ctb. Wether it be a lack of resources, constant surveillance from professionals/family or health conditions that can make the act of ctb physically taxing or impossible - there are many reasons why someone may want to ctb but can be unable to do so on their own or easily.

Everyone who vents on this forum is very aware of your point, but it isn't helpful for you to say and is borderline encouraging ctb which is not allowed here, from my knowledge.

That was a very ignorant and cruel thing for you to say.

 

[Dark Moon]

Same, life is too painful for me to continue further.

 

[Dliena]

I wish you good rest FC and very sorry for all your tragic pains.

 

[iloverachel]

Hope you had a good sleep Funeralcry
I agree that non-existence is beautiful
I hope one day we are both free from this hellish world