I’m split in half

[Mene Tame]

I'm split in half, there's part of me that wants to die, and part of me that doesn't.
Its a constant clash that continues indefinitely, I feel like the suicidal will win at some point, it tells me to die to stop believing people that are trying to help it wants to remove the guilt provoked by people that don't want me to die, it's trying it's best to do that, I genuinely don't know what to do, I might just give up and let it destroy me