user933957
i’m filled with hatred and need to die.
- Jun 24, 2023
- 144
Honestly, i'm just here to sob and cry about how pathetic my life has become.
Only one year ago, i was doing okay.
I had friends, i was pretty happy. I took medication and had therapy. For once, i was finally looking up to life.
My life completely changed in September 2025. My life was ruined. I don't want to go into detail, but i have since moved to another country far away from my life. It was my first time in this country. I lost everything i had, opportunities, job, everything.
I barely talk to the people i was friends with, because they have a life. They have jobs, friends, family, things to look forward to. I don't. Ever since my life was changed, it feels like i stopped, like i paused. I don't go to school anymore, i lost my job i had here, and i have no motivation. This feeling is absolutely horrible, it's terrifying and there's nobody to help me with it. I am completely alone, and i have nobody to talk to me. If there is, i self sabotage the friendship and isolate myself. This feeling is consuming me, its like i'll never get better, that i'll never become anything. I don't know what to do, and i don't want to do anything frankly. Nobody is helping me, everyone gave up on me, so seriously, what's the point? I dont care if i'm selfish for taking my life. It's my life, why should others try and tell me what to do with it?
I dont want to continue, i dont want to do anything or get a life. I dont want to be anyone or anything, so i will dedicate the short time i have in my pathetic life to find out how to end it.
Only one year ago, i was doing okay.
I had friends, i was pretty happy. I took medication and had therapy. For once, i was finally looking up to life.
My life completely changed in September 2025. My life was ruined. I don't want to go into detail, but i have since moved to another country far away from my life. It was my first time in this country. I lost everything i had, opportunities, job, everything.
I barely talk to the people i was friends with, because they have a life. They have jobs, friends, family, things to look forward to. I don't. Ever since my life was changed, it feels like i stopped, like i paused. I don't go to school anymore, i lost my job i had here, and i have no motivation. This feeling is absolutely horrible, it's terrifying and there's nobody to help me with it. I am completely alone, and i have nobody to talk to me. If there is, i self sabotage the friendship and isolate myself. This feeling is consuming me, its like i'll never get better, that i'll never become anything. I don't know what to do, and i don't want to do anything frankly. Nobody is helping me, everyone gave up on me, so seriously, what's the point? I dont care if i'm selfish for taking my life. It's my life, why should others try and tell me what to do with it?
I dont want to continue, i dont want to do anything or get a life. I dont want to be anyone or anything, so i will dedicate the short time i have in my pathetic life to find out how to end it.
