Venting I'm so tired.

[im-so-sorry]

I'm so tired. I'm so goddamn tired. "Of what? What for?" I don't know. I want to stop, to have the balls to kill myself but I can't. I really can't and I don't know what's happening, or what will happen, and I'm just so done. Im sad but I can't yell at the tears in my eyes to come out even if I wanted to. The world is such a shitty place and it's so laughable to see people preaching all the "good things" about it. Why does anyone actually care.

 

[FuneralCry]

This world undeniably is such a hellish place, existence repluses me and when people glorify the harsh reality of existing in this nightmarish world it comes across as people being blinded by delusions to me, those who label existence as being "good" certainly are in denial as the reality is that existence offers no relief from suffering, it's truly something so hopeless enduring this futile existence.
But I understand feeling so tired of being trapped here, I hate how difficult it is to finally cease existing, it's like a cruel punishment how we cannot just free ourselves from all the suffering in peace.