im so pathetic

[Theforeverblind]

im so fucking worthless i should just kill myself already im a failure at everything ive ever done i have no meaningful skills everyone around me is so much smarter and successful than i am i cant fucking stand myself i wish my peartner would just brake up with me and find someone better so i can end it already, all i ever do is try to ignore how worthless i am im so tired of trying to live i just want it all to stop but i cant even do that because i dont want to hurt the people around me fuck im so patheitc i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself

 

[eupdplishlp]

what in your life has made you feel like this if you feel comfortable sharing?

 

[Theforeverblind]

well went to college and i had to drop out because it made me to suicidal and depressed and then i got a job and the same thing happened, im barely able to function, any skill i have one of my friends are better at or know more about than i do. i know that sounds like im mad at them but im so happy for them i just feel worthless like theres nothing i can do that someone around me couldnt like whats even the point i cant do anything

 

[SomewhereAlongThe]

I feel very similar. I have autism, and I suck at learning because my memory is not that good. I'm hardly athletic or coordinated. I can hardly draw properly. Not that much of a cook. Not compassionate or willing enough to work with the needy. Not a writer, my imagination sucks. There's just no skills I possess or natural abilities that make me think "I'm fit for this world." Feeling worthless and like a failure is how I feel a lot of the time. I can't escape feeling this way, unless I end my life.

 

[Theforeverblind]

i feel like i should be able to do better my whole childhood i was told the only thing that mattered was me being smart and now that my mental health has gotten so bad i cant do anything without wanting to ctb i feel so horrible like if im not smart im worthless i hate myself so much

 

[eupdplishlp]

well went to college and i had to drop out because it made me to suicidal and depressed and then i got a job and the same thing happened, im barely able to function, any skill i have one of my friends are better at or know more about than i do. i know that sounds like im mad at them but im so happy for them i just feel worthless like theres nothing i can do that someone around me couldnt like whats even the point i cant do anything

I dropped out of collage too. coudln't focus and people picked on me. attendance was 20% I was able to scrape functional skills english and math maths but even if you don't get them at college it's still possible to be very successful especially in creative industries and you can even buy fake degree certificates. also being rasied and told the only thing that matters isbeing smar is narcassitic I know cause my own mother was like this. It adds pressure when what actaullly helps is support