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Maybe one day I’ll stop yearning
- Jun 25, 2025
- 28
It's genuinely driving me insane constantly yearning for someone like this. I don't understand why I'm so attached to him anymore, He's made it so clear that he no longer wants anything to do with me but I don't understand why I can't let go. It fucking hurts and I want it to just stop. I know I fucked it up, I know I cheated but it still fucking hurts. And on top of that I'm still trying to process what happened, It's my fault I got attached but it's her fault for kissing me but it's my fault for letting it happen and everything is so fucking conflicting. I have plans to kill myself but I don't want to act on it because it's such a stupid reason to kill myself over. I feel so fucking useless now, all my other friends hang out with each other constantly and I can never do anything about because I live too far away. I'm constantly left out of certain events because I don't have a proper computer to do things with them. I'm in this state of constant loneliness and I can't do anything about because the one person that I would get regular attention from acts like I don't exist anymore. He does something on the same level and barely showed remorse for it. Yes it hurt but at the same time I was willing to work around it. I mean I know why he did it, I don't think it was necessary but I could still understand it. And maybe it's a good thing that it ended but I'm still craving what once was. I feel pathetic over it, It's gotten to a point where it's hard to eat because these emotions make me want to constantly vomit. I just want this to be over.
