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hereandthere13

hereandthere13

why me?
Sep 14, 2023
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i cant even watch tv shows because i get attached to certain characters, usually father-type figures, or people around my age i could see myself being friends with. i also get sad watching dramas centered around a job like in an office or medical center because it makes me feel unaccomplished. im tired of crying alone
 
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graveflower

graveflower

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Nov 18, 2025
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what shows were you watching when you felt that way? if you don't mind answering.
 
hereandthere13

hereandthere13

why me?
Sep 14, 2023
153
what shows were you watching when you felt that way? if you don't mind answering.
the pitt is a big one (where my pfp is from). a medical drama that takes place in the ER, extremely likable characters, older doctors/nurses with huge hearts, some who have similar traumas to me. you see my point. i spent an hour crying in my bathroom cus of an edit i saw on fucking tiktok lmao
 
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graveflower

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Nov 18, 2025
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I'm really sorry to hear, but I understand you entirely. Loneliness and isolation hurts- feeling like you've missed out on certain milestones or life experiences that seem so normal to other people. Is it kind of just a feeling of longing for something you haven't had? Or just wishing those archetypes were playing an active role in your life? Or is it a bit of both?
 
pechaberry

pechaberry

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Apr 29, 2026
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I feel the same way. I really love romance shows but my life has been one love rejection after another. The shows make me feel lonely and sick to my stomach. I can't stop watching them though. It's so depressing. I'm sorry you feel that too. The aching pit you get from it is the absolute worst.
 

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