@Snake Bridges I'm sorry to hear you are feeling so worthless. You don't say how old you are but things can change, there are plenty of things you can do before you resort to suicide. No judgement here of course but I know things do change for many people. Is there any job or studies you'd really like to do?
I'm 32. I've seen enough to realize things aren't going to change and ever associating with other people just makes my situation worse. And to answer your question I'm just too weak to handle a job and I never get along with anybody at work. I either get outed as the weirdo or I get teased by other co-workers. I refuse to go to work in fear of harming someone. I'm just weak-minded. Call it laziness, I don't fucking care anymore. I've heard that word too many times. And any type of education my family never encourages it or pushes me for any kind of education. And that's the funny thing. Every time anything good happens to me, my parents ego feels threatened so they go out of their way of trying to put me down in some form by complaining about something that I've done or something I haven't done yet. Anyways, even if I did go to college I lack of any kind of transportation and my parents never drop me off it's 10 miles away I simply can't just walk. Even if I took online courses I'm too fucking retarded for that shit I'm simply uneducated. I am unable to learn anything. I've had a learning disability since I was a kid. I didn't learn how to speak until I was 5 - 6. And was in the IEP program all my grade school years.
I think that people should be able to always talk openly about suicide without the stigma and fear of being judged for wanting to leave. After all wanting suicide can be perfectly rational in a world like this and we have no obligations to live as we did not ask to exist. I hope that you are able to find relief from your suffering. I do not personally fear death, I actually look forward to it, but instead I fear the method failing. Ctb really is so difficult and it should be easier.
I hear you. Human beings should have the right to suicide no matter what. Self-righteous cunts think they have the moral high ground to say, "NO! DON'T DO IT!" when all they're doing is just virtue signaling. 90% of people who tell others to don't kill themselves are simply there to feel good about themselves like they won high morality points. Like it's some fucking KotOR RPG game where dark and light side points jump up for every bad or good deed that happens. It's just shallow and ingenuine and I never believe a single soul who think they care. It's just shallow. And did I forget to mention that the governent doesn't want to legalize assisted suicide simply because they know for a god damn fact that eveyrone would be dropping like flies. There would be no work force because everyone would be killing themselves!!! They need you to work so they have a functioning economy. The government, civilians ANYONE doesn't give a fuck about you or anyone else out there and it's the sad truth. I've ultimately came to the conclusion that no one gives a fuck about human life and it's all just a pretend show to pretend to "love" and "care" for anyone nowadays. Love doesn't exist. Anyways ctb should be fucking legal and I wish killing ourselves was easy and painless. It fucking sucks. I'm still planning on how to do it.
I feel the same way. Outside of here is very difficult to say how one feels because they will start judging like if they were in ones shoes. I am also happy I can count with all you here.
Thank you. It feels so damn good to not be alone in this. And thank you for your reply. DM's are open if you want to talk about it.
i can relate. and i'm also neet and live with a parent. i recently had a part time job for six months, but i gave up. it's all so pointless. but at least now i have some money saved up to ctb in a decent way.
Right on man. Wish I wasn't broke man. Save onto that money when the time comes. Deep down I wanna say don't do it but I don't know the severity of your issue. I hope you figure out the answers regardless.
You are welcome here!
I'm curious as to why you think that you "deserve death" - have people treated you so badly so far that you have convinced yourself that you don't deserve to be treated well?
I've been fucked over by so many people by so many fake assholes by so many other people. I laugh whenever I see people talking about equality and shit when that is a complete farce. Everyone is just an asshole. I don't believe that there's good people. I don't believe in anyone's authentic nature. In my world everyone is basically a sociopath. Parents hate me. I am the middle child out of the family so of course I am disregarded. And yes, I was abused as a child too. But they like to pretend it never happened. I could go on and on. For years I was in-denial but it's now taking it's toll. I just don't think good people exist.
I feel the same way and outside of this place it's hard to find anyone else who feels the same
That's why I'm here and why everyone is here anyways. It gives me great relief.
