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Siamese Believe

Siamese Believe

Student
Dec 8, 2025
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For years I would go to the top of a cliff, standing right at the very edge, trying to get the courage to jump.

Luckily I never got the courage. I'd back out and sit there, looking at the ground far down below. Part of me knew I would never do it. Would damn near rather bite my own tongue off and choke on my blood over doing that, I also have a mighty fear of heights.

The cliff was about 200+ ft off the ground. I don't remember the exact height but I think it was above 100 ft for sure. There was a spot where I could fall down onto jagged rocks.

I don't like jumping as a method though, never did. For one it's awfully terrifying, Far scarier than seeing my own blood. But at the time it seemed like it was my only option. And it's at least quick.

I also hike recreationally so it's normal for me to hike mountains without intent to jump so the mountain was easily accessible to me, nobody would immediately suspect suicide because nature is my passion. I've long since explored better methods.

It's not that jumping isn't effective, but you seriously need guts for that. And I feel like the damage is gonna far worse than other methods if you survived. It's not a risk I wanted to take. If I was gonna go with a death that plays into my greatest fear, then I at least wanted a guaranteed death.

Although I'm pretty sure jumping off a skyscraper onto concrete with nothing to break your fall is guaranteed death as your head will pop like a melon.
 
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Publicvoid

Member
Dec 10, 2025
19
More/less guaranteed after a certain height is my understanding. I couldn't do it in a city for fear of landing on someone.
 
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leftoperish

leftoperish

Member
Dec 10, 2025
29
I also have a personal disdain for it only because i want my body intact for who needs it because i feel i have a personal responsibility to do so, same way i feel as humans and as members of a community we all have a personal responsibility to be sensitive about the things we put out some people find it as their chosen method some even have lost people to it so i feel you should try to restructure this in a way it feels less judgy if anything. Peace and love
 
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Defenestration

Defenestration

I want to have the courage to defenestrate myself
Oct 25, 2020
1,884
Jump is my favorite méthod
Over 50 m
 
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Gangrel

Gangrel

bark bark ᯓ★
Jul 25, 2024
700
i also hate it, heights is such a fear of mine, my method was and will probably be hanging
 
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ObsidianWatcher

ObsidianWatcher

Member
Dec 12, 2025
47
Jumping is too scary for me as well. I've read too many accounts of people who survived their jumps, and how as soon as they were past the point of no return they felt only regret. I'd never risk a method that left that potential open.
 
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kouna

kouna

Soon CTB by fsh
Dec 14, 2025
69
Done it (only 3 floors), survived with little damage on my right foot, right elbow and waist and would do it again but it would have to be over 15 floors. First time was totally spontaneous without planning 3 years ago.

As I've mentioned in other threads, I'm a cliff diver and I've done parachute training (never sky dived though) so I love jumping from heights (10-15 meters is a piece of cake).
There is a block of flats with 10 floors in my town but I don't think there's access to the penthouse for non residents.

Edit: I didn't regret doing it, as ppl would think, I was disappointed that I survived.
 
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kuroshimi

kuroshimi

If you're not remembered, then you never existed.
Dec 1, 2025
231
That's why I'm not considering jumping as my method, despite that fact that theoretically there is a possibility of doing it.
 
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cait_sith

cait_sith

Apr 8, 2024
337
I would love to jump, but there are so many variables, like I read a story once of a guy who jumped from the Empire State Building and a gush of wind made him crash into the window a few stories down, I am scared of being a miracle surivor who will be interviewed with a thousand broken bones about how lucky I feel for surviving a 30 stories fall by pointing at some letters with the only finger that isnt shattered. That being said if it goes right it's quick dream death but I'm so scared of surviving.
 
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Tommen Baratheon

Tommen Baratheon

1+1=3
Dec 26, 2023
466
Just leaving this here:

C'est l'histoire d'un homme qui tombe d'un immeuble de cinquante étages. Le mec, au fur et à mesure de sa chute, il se répète sans cesse pour se rassurer : jusqu'ici tout va bien, jusqu'ici tout va bien, jusqu'ici tout va bien.
Mais l'important n'est pas la chute, c'est l'atterrissage.


From the movie 'La Haine'.
 
fadedghost

fadedghost

desperately seeking "Method A"
Dec 10, 2025
238
For years I would go to the top of a cliff, standing right at the very edge, trying to get the courage to jump.

Luckily I never got the courage. I'd back out and sit there, looking at the ground far down below. Part of me knew I would never do it. Would damn near rather bite my own tongue off and choke on my blood over doing that, I also have a mighty fear of heights.

The cliff was about 200+ ft off the ground. I don't remember the exact height but I think it was above 100 ft for sure. There was a spot where I could fall down onto jagged rocks.

I don't like jumping as a method though, never did. For one it's awfully terrifying, Far scarier than seeing my own blood. But at the time it seemed like it was my only option. And it's at least quick.

I also hike recreationally so it's normal for me to hike mountains without intent to jump so the mountain was easily accessible to me, nobody would immediately suspect suicide because nature is my passion. I've long since explored better methods.

It's not that jumping isn't effective, but you seriously need guts for that. And I feel like the damage is gonna far worse than other methods if you survived. It's not a risk I wanted to take. If I was gonna go with a death that plays into my greatest fear, then I at least wanted a guaranteed death.

Although I'm pretty sure jumping off a skyscraper onto concrete with nothing to break your fall is guaranteed death as your head will pop like a melon.
it's so scary i couldn't read the whole post... :-/
Just leaving this here:

C'est l'histoire d'un homme qui tombe d'un immeuble de cinquante étages. Le mec, au fur et à mesure de sa chute, il se répète sans cesse pour se rassurer : jusqu'ici tout va bien, jusqu'ici tout va bien, jusqu'ici tout va bien.
Mais l'important n'est pas la chute, c'est l'atterrissage.


From the movie 'La Haine'.
how's the movie end? is it a good ending?
 
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XiaroX

XiaroX

Team Empathy Singularity
Dec 5, 2025
109
I did a bungee jump to practice. I rented a room in a skyscraper hotel. I planned it for months, but when I got there, didn't jump.

What I'm sort of getting the vibe for here is that yet again I am hated, not understood.

And that's actually one of the reasons people go through with killing themselves - when even in a place like this, they feel they don't belong.
 
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David_gog

Member
Nov 2, 2025
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For years I would go to the top of a cliff, standing right at the very edge, trying to get the courage to jump.

Luckily I never got the courage. I'd back out and sit there, looking at the ground far down below. Part of me knew I would never do it. Would damn near rather bite my own tongue off and choke on my blood over doing that, I also have a mighty fear of heights.

The cliff was about 200+ ft off the ground. I don't remember the exact height but I think it was above 100 ft for sure. There was a spot where I could fall down onto jagged rocks.

I don't like jumping as a method though, never did. For one it's awfully terrifying, Far scarier than seeing my own blood. But at the time it seemed like it was my only option. And it's at least quick.

I also hike recreationally so it's normal for me to hike mountains without intent to jump so the mountain was easily accessible to me, nobody would immediately suspect suicide because nature is my passion. I've long since explored better methods.

It's not that jumping isn't effective, but you seriously need guts for that. And I feel like the damage is gonna far worse than other methods if you survived. It's not a risk I wanted to take. If I was gonna go with a death that plays into my greatest fear, then I at least wanted a guaranteed death.

Although I'm pretty sure jumping off a skyscraper onto concrete with nothing to break your fall is guaranteed death as your head will pop like a melon.
i mean honestly speaking isnt it obvious that literally none of the methods are not scary? they are, to the extent. i do agree that it is extremely scary, although speaking practically, it is also one of the best ones since is guaranteed if you choose the height correctly ofc. it IS one of the legit methods, along with hanging and drowning. relatively easy to access, relatively less painful and relatively more chances of success.(im not into chemistry stuff there may be some others too i just dont know about them, but other then chemical ones i dont actually belive there are any other legit methods out there)
 
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Gangrel

Gangrel

bark bark ᯓ★
Jul 25, 2024
700
I did a bungee jump to practice. I rented a room in a skyscraper hotel. I planned it for months, but when I got there, didn't jump.

What I'm sort of getting the vibe for here is that yet again I am hated, not understood.

And that's actually one of the reasons people go through with killing themselves - when even in a place like this, they feel they don't belong.
Why do you think you're hated here
 
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XiaroX

XiaroX

Team Empathy Singularity
Dec 5, 2025
109
There were a few intellectual comments and reactions I understood. Anyplace you go, there will be people who like you or don't, and I get that. My communication style online is different to offline - I might seem 'softer' and kinder in person, but I've been writing for a long time and have developed a style that often just bites people the wrong way. Maybe it's just a few people, and I apologize to the others. I think a lot of people can understand how even a little hate/prejudice/misunderstanding can go a long way when you are no longer resilient.
 
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Defenestration

Defenestration

I want to have the courage to defenestrate myself
Oct 25, 2020
1,884
J'ai fait un saut à l'élastique pour m'entraîner. J'avais loué une chambre dans un hôtel gratte-ciel. Je l'avais préparé pendant des mois, mais une fois sur place, je n'ai pas sauté.

J'ai l'impression, une fois de plus, que je suis haï et non compris.

Et c'est précisément l'une des raisons pour lesquelles les gens se suicident : même dans un endroit comme celui-ci, ils ont le sentiment de ne pas avoir leur place.
For me, it's the opposite. I'm not too afraid of jumping... compared to everything I read, people's testimonials, and all those panic-inducing aspects. I found a footbridge about 60 meters long, but I have to aim carefully for the road, and I'm afraid that when I jump, I'll be slowed down by the cables holding the bridge up at the beginning. The problem is that it's 350 km away, I don't have a car, and to get there by train, I'd have to change trains twice...
For me, it's the opposite. I'm not too afraid of jumping... compared to everything I read, people's testimonials, and all those panic-inducing aspects. I found a footbridge about 60 meters long, but I have to aim carefully for the road, and I'm afraid that when I jump, I'll be slowed down by the cables holding the bridge up at the beginning. The problem is that it's 350 km away, I don't have a car, and to get there by train, I'd have to change trains twice...
For me, it's the opposite. I'm not too afraid of jumping... compared to everything I read, people's testimonials, and all those panic-inducing aspects. I found a footbridge about 60 meters long, but I have to aim carefully for the road, and I'm afraid that when I jump, I'll be slowed down by the cables holding the bridge up at the beginning. The problem is that it's 350 km away, I don't have a car, and to get there by train, I'd have to change trains twice...
 
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Defenestration

Defenestration

I want to have the courage to defenestrate myself
Oct 25, 2020
1,884
Cb is not illégal but hard to fond without dolor and 100/100 sure
 
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slowlydying2mrrw

slowlydying2mrrw

Queen Bitch of the Universe
Apr 17, 2024
67
More/less guaranteed after a certain height is my understanding. I couldn't do it in a city for fear of landing on someone.
Imagine if they broke your fall, you lived and was charged with unintentional manslaughter :/
Done it (only 3 floors), survived with little damage on my right foot, right elbow and waist and would do it again but it would have to be over 15 floors. First time was totally spontaneous without planning 3 years ago.

As I've mentioned in other threads, I'm a cliff diver and I've done parachute training (never sky dived though) so I love jumping from heights (10-15 meters is a piece of cake).
There is a block of flats with 10 floors in my town but I don't think there's access to the penthouse for non residents.

Edit: I didn't regret doing it, as ppl would think, I was disappointed that I survived.
I think that is the most misunderstood part. People think it's quick but don't ponder if they survive the fall.
 
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Defenestration

I want to have the courage to defenestrate myself
Oct 25, 2020
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