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burninghill

burninghill

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Dec 2, 2025
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I don't even care anymore. I've been stable despite being suicidal in the last 2 months (some would argue those are mutually exclusive, but they aren't for me haha) but now I'm just so fucking tired.

It doesn't matter what I do, everywhere I am I just think of how exhausted I am of all of this stuff. Of living. There's no other way to describe it. It's just exhaustion. I feel like I'm dragging a dead body everywhere.

I think I've just reached a point where my body is tired of waiting for me to have the will to die and it's decided to start giving up on itself. I wasn't sad before but now all I do is cry myself to sleep. I don't know why. Maybe I've just had a few long days and I'm sleepy. I don't know. I just want to go away and die already but I'm a pussy.
 
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Tomorrow Is Today

Tomorrow Is Today

don’t get any big ideas
May 16, 2026
83
It's tiring indeed. Aimlessly going through the motions and waiting to die is a pain I wouldn't wish on anybody. I'm a pussy too, already postponed so many final days I start to question whether I really have it in me. I hope you find what you need.
 
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Lamentice

Lamentice

Walk without rhythm and you won't attract the worm
Mar 27, 2023
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Feel that, everything is fucking exhausting. Energy doesn't even recuperate anymore, waking up is exhausting all the way to going back to sleep being exhausting.
 
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ForeverLonely82

ForeverLonely82

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Dec 22, 2021
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Being an older person here, I can relate to this because when you reach my age and you've dealt with everything for so long, and it's pelted you mentally for a very long time, it indeed is exhausting. Just thinking about something is exhausting. It's like say I want to upgrade my computer. I can buy the stuff if I have the money, but then when I get the parts, thinking about putting that shit in is exhausting to me. Sure, eventually I'll get around to it when I have a little bit of a drive, but that is so rare these days. Life is just draining.
 
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Ben 111

Ben 111

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Apr 29, 2026
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I just wish I was never born honestly 🥺😔
 
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Dec 27, 2020
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Ben 111

Ben 111

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Apr 29, 2026
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Me too..i just wanna die
I don't even care anymore. I've been stable despite being suicidal in the last 2 months (some would argue those are mutually exclusive, but they aren't for me haha) but now I'm just so fucking tired.

It doesn't matter what I do, everywhere I am I just think of how exhausted I am of all of this stuff. Of living. There's no other way to describe it. It's just exhaustion. I feel like I'm dragging a dead body everywhere.

I think I've just reached a point where my body is tired of waiting for me to have the will to die and it's decided to start giving up on itself. I wasn't sad before but now all I do is cry myself to sleep. I don't know why. Maybe I've just had a few long days and I'm sleepy. I don't know. I just want to go away and die already but I'm a pussy.
That's exactly what i'm feelin everyday..its almost like my soul is exhausted frm repeating the same day/patterns everyday...i just rot on my bed the whole day while doomscrolling.i just wanna go home where I belong
 
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