
kunikuzushi
sause
- Jan 24, 2023
- 372
i can't even open my eyes
i can't do anything but lie here. not even sleep.
even just existing in this moment is so painful. when will it be over?
I foolishly tried to explain to people that I'm constantly being tortured just by being alive and they didn't understand it at all. so it's really possible to exist without being in constant pain? it doesn't make sense to me. I've been in pain since my earliest memory. I don't know how I've lasted 32 years like this
i panic at the thought of having to experience this agony tomorrow and the next day and the next day until i finally get the courage to end it.
i can't do anything but lie here. not even sleep.
even just existing in this moment is so painful. when will it be over?
I foolishly tried to explain to people that I'm constantly being tortured just by being alive and they didn't understand it at all. so it's really possible to exist without being in constant pain? it doesn't make sense to me. I've been in pain since my earliest memory. I don't know how I've lasted 32 years like this
i panic at the thought of having to experience this agony tomorrow and the next day and the next day until i finally get the courage to end it.