Venting I'm scared

[kopebaldy]

I'm gonna do it tonight, everything has been prepared, noone will be at the house, this is a perfect opportunity that I'll probably never get again.

And I'm scared.

My heart beating so fast, I can't think straight, my vision blurred, I'm hyperventilating.

I was so determined, why the fuck am I always such a coward when it matters.

I hate myself so much. I have to go through this and I'm shaking.

 

[Alexandra_]

I wish you good luck, friend

 

[darksouls]

I wish you the best
hope you find relief from suffering

 

[fedup1982]

It's not easy at all. This is quite normal!! After a while it gets easier but when I've had days like this I usually just try to calm down. Some people find that with enough days like this eventually the worries, scariness and SI fade away and you find a way to do it. If today's not the day for you, dont push it. There's no harm in scheduling it for another day.

 

[UnrulyNightmare]

It sounds like you're having a panic attack. Try to counting your breath. 4 in, hold for 4 and out in 6 is my fav. Look around. What do you see? Describe it in detail. Feel what's under your hands, rough texture, or soft. If you have something cold, press it against your wrist or neck. That can help with the immediate panic ❤

There's no pressure to do it a certain day, perfect circumstances or not!
Just be sure of your decision and make sure it's thought through.
I hope tonight goes well for you. No matter what happens I hope you find peace
You are always welcome back here!

 

[Freedomm]

If you decide to take the bus, I wish you good luck and that everything goes smoothly.

 

[r.m.216]

I wish you the best. If you need support we are here.