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- Sep 10, 2023
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Im sorry if I'm just yapping on but I feel like this is the only safe space I can talk about this without being scolded. For the last couple of years, I've been experiencing really dark thoughts, about ending my life. Sometimes it's more of a "what if I died" type thought but other times, and especially last couple months, it's more of a "when" or something I should do. I'm 18 and I've been having these thoughts since I was 14. And still, to this day, even when I plan everything, I just get scared. Scared that I'll suffer, and not die. I've tried to talk to my parents but they either say I'm making it up or it's just a phase. This has also been the same response to when I opened up about me being pansexual. I feel like I need to hurt myself but again, fear overcomes me. It's like an instinct, and as much as I hate my thoughts, I also hate my instinct to stay alive. I have no one to talk to about this. I'm jw what others think. Is this normal? Is there ways to build up to me committing, like self harm, etc. I just wanna hear an opinion from people who are in the same boat.