I'm scared of what I'm capable of

[OOUUneverover]

I'm too unstable. My emotions are on constant overdrive. My anxiety flares up more and more every day. I'm getting more irritated with people around me. They're all enemies to me. I'm getting more irritated with myself too. I can't trust myself.
my only two emotions at this point are depression and hatred. I'm scared, I'm not used to dealing with this much hatred in my body. It's putting me in mania all the time. I'm scared I'm going to lose sentience at some point and become like a machine. I already feel like that sometimes.
I'm scared of my own actions and what I might do during an episode. I can barely keep it together as is; what it it's just a little bit worse, and pushed me over the edge?

 

[springerclinger27]

"Just cool your beans dude." Smoke marijuana, or don't if that makes things worse. Do what you like to do if theres anything you like to do (that doesnt hurt others!). Or avoid escalating situations as much as you can.

 

[F@#$]

Depression and hatred, add a bunch of anger and I'm right there too. I've given up on caring about if my actions effect others though.