Rainn
Member
- Dec 3, 2020
- 18
I'm at this point where I'm just ready to end my life. There's no point for me to continue on just to struggle in this like with work, school, moneys, everything in general. Everyday I'm thinking about just killing myself, hating my life, wishing things were easy for me. All my friends and family are so happy with their lives and all these good things happening to them while I'm just here filled with negative thoughts. My life already bad enough now I have to be caught up with some guy.
There's a recent post I made about this guy I met last here who was I was trying to get over and nothing seems to helping me in this situation. Everyday me and this were always together hanging out, going out to eat, talking about things we were gonna do together, etc. Long story short, I confessed my feelings, things went okay, we still hung out for a little bit and after that we just stopped. It really confused me with all the flirting he was doing, acting like we were dating and I thought he felt the same way but I guess I was wrong. My friends told me that he was just leading me on and I should stat away from him before things get worse. Why didn't I listen to them?
He moved away a month ago, he said he's coming back but I don't plan on seeing him at all. I just don't need that in my life. Just when I thought things couldn't get any worse for me. Surprise surprise he's gonna be a dad! I found out today and when I friend told me I was so upset I didn't know what to do. She comforted me while I was crying. She told me "she's trying to hurt me so I can get over him" which I thought was pretty funny but... Thanks? I guess?
I really upsets me that I had to find out about this. He didn't wanna tell me he was leaving and that he was gonna be a dad because he was trying to "play it safe" or just doesn't want me to get hurt. But why lead me on thinking that you're interested in me and then just ignore me and leave like nothing ever happened? Like all the things he said to me and felt about me was a lie? I just feel like an idiot and I hate that I have to go through this. I can't even have a normal day to myself without something ridiculous happening to me.
No matter how hard I try to stay positive and be happy I just can't. It's like I'm unlucky or something. I didn't even ask to meet this guy and fall in love it just happened! I hate feeling this way I wish it would do away. I have so much going on in my life and I don't need this right now.
There's a recent post I made about this guy I met last here who was I was trying to get over and nothing seems to helping me in this situation. Everyday me and this were always together hanging out, going out to eat, talking about things we were gonna do together, etc. Long story short, I confessed my feelings, things went okay, we still hung out for a little bit and after that we just stopped. It really confused me with all the flirting he was doing, acting like we were dating and I thought he felt the same way but I guess I was wrong. My friends told me that he was just leading me on and I should stat away from him before things get worse. Why didn't I listen to them?
He moved away a month ago, he said he's coming back but I don't plan on seeing him at all. I just don't need that in my life. Just when I thought things couldn't get any worse for me. Surprise surprise he's gonna be a dad! I found out today and when I friend told me I was so upset I didn't know what to do. She comforted me while I was crying. She told me "she's trying to hurt me so I can get over him" which I thought was pretty funny but... Thanks? I guess?
I really upsets me that I had to find out about this. He didn't wanna tell me he was leaving and that he was gonna be a dad because he was trying to "play it safe" or just doesn't want me to get hurt. But why lead me on thinking that you're interested in me and then just ignore me and leave like nothing ever happened? Like all the things he said to me and felt about me was a lie? I just feel like an idiot and I hate that I have to go through this. I can't even have a normal day to myself without something ridiculous happening to me.
No matter how hard I try to stay positive and be happy I just can't. It's like I'm unlucky or something. I didn't even ask to meet this guy and fall in love it just happened! I hate feeling this way I wish it would do away. I have so much going on in my life and I don't need this right now.
