I'm not going to survive No matter how hard I try

[searchingforpeace]

I'm severely mentally ill I can barely walk my mother acts like none of its happening and abuses me I'm trying to live alone I have home elfates that either don't show up or don't speak any English. Nobody understands or they just guilt trip me. Nobody has any idea that how long going through nor do they care. I've been grappling mental illness for 30 years and a disability that is completely dismissed and doctors don't give a flying crap About called functional neurological disorder which is just A cop out term that they use.. Jet get better once when I was in the rehab place in 2018 but they won't even bother to try sending me back there and I also had limous disease but every door I try to fix it with is closed to me. So exhausted I feel it in my bones every second.. I'm fighting For my survival and nobody cares I don't know why don't just take the SN right now great what I have cannot be fixed and there is no medicine for what I have so I'm screwed I don't know what I'm going to do
Please somebody just end my pain i'm so tormented I can't function i'm calling to end up completely insane

 

[darksouls]

I am very sorry for your situation
hope you find relief from suffering

 

[FuneralCry]

That sounds so horrible what you are going through, it's just so cruel and terrible to me how there's all this suffering in existing with no limit as to how much one can be tortured, it sounds like you've suffered so much, I wish you the best, I hope you find the relief you search for.

 

[snooperdooper]

I am so sorry, I hope that you find respite someday. It hurts to see family members either sit around idly while you struggle, force you to continue living and suffering, or actively contribute to your suffering.

 

[searchingforpeace]

thank you very much

 

[searchingforpeace]

i just want to die. i fucking hate existence.