elpurp
Member
- Dec 29, 2024
- 20
met a girl off of a dating app and we talked for two days b4 she told me she still loves her ex. i blocked her. before my ex, the last time i got into any sort of talking stage was 2023 and that also didn't materialize.
perhaps love is only mine for days at a time. i'm doomed to rejection and the occasional failed talking stage every few years or so to keep hope alive, only to get rugpulled and backhand slapped into reality.
i can read more, exercise, eat healthier, learn new languages, do affirmations, get off of social media and love myself as much as i want: depression doesn't give a fuck and the desire to be loved doesn't go away. even though i desperately...DESPERATELY want the shit out of me because i'm dying alone and it won't be fulfilled again.
it often feels like i do nothing but scream into the ether nowadays when i vent, as if my problems are mundane and i should just accept this is my life and there's no good in complaining abt it. this will get buried. nobody's gonna see this. who gives a fuck. at least i have porn. porn doesn't reject me.
perhaps love is only mine for days at a time. i'm doomed to rejection and the occasional failed talking stage every few years or so to keep hope alive, only to get rugpulled and backhand slapped into reality.
i can read more, exercise, eat healthier, learn new languages, do affirmations, get off of social media and love myself as much as i want: depression doesn't give a fuck and the desire to be loved doesn't go away. even though i desperately...DESPERATELY want the shit out of me because i'm dying alone and it won't be fulfilled again.
it often feels like i do nothing but scream into the ether nowadays when i vent, as if my problems are mundane and i should just accept this is my life and there's no good in complaining abt it. this will get buried. nobody's gonna see this. who gives a fuck. at least i have porn. porn doesn't reject me.
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