Venting i'm not a functional adult and this bothers me a lot

[deeprootdisease]

hey sasu people! i logged off for quite a while, but unfortunately i'm back

what i wanted to say today is that i cannot for the life of me be a functional adult. i can't take care of adult responsibilities. and this bothers me a lot.

i wanted to have a job, i wanted to go to university, i wanted to have a clean house. I can't. at this point i just have to be honest with myself and understand that im so irresponsible that I can't maintain anything that isn't running from my problems 24/7

thank you for reading

 

[IHateTheBeach]

Try little like brushing teeth and improve from that. We are in the same boat. I am also trying my best to change

 

[GodzillasBiggestFan]

i feel the same. its rough to live like this. i try to do what i can when i can. i can tell i am behind though.

 

[roborabbit]

I feel the same way. I can't seem to maintain anything but my dead end job. Health, home, finances I'm terrible at keeping track of.

 

[astaroth81]

For me, having undergone years of depression, my frontal lobe is completely fucked up. Combined with drug use and whatever else damages it, my frontal lobe might not even function at all anymore.

How can I possibly make good decisions and do anything right or make plans for the future when the part of my brain that handles decision making and reasoning does not work right if at all?

How can I make plans to break the cycle and see it through when I'm incapable of doing so?

I can definitely relate with your post. Then seeing my younger sister out in the world doing well just kills me even more. She just bought her own condo and I'm literally homeless living with my mom.

Largely why I know I need to ctb.