Venting I'm never satisfied with the way i look.

[EndlessRage]

I hate the way my body looks, no matter how much i eat i will remain skinny my frame is terrible too whenever i take a photo myself from a far i look tall and lanky, i consistently think, oh in this photo my face looks ok and after a few days i take a look at the same photo again i begin to hate myself i'm constantly trying to make my self look better to the maximum extent why do i have to be so insecure about myself? i get told i look normal and good by other people and many women too but the insecurity never dies.
If i ever killed myself i wouldn't want my face to look sick, disgusting and ugly, i'm obsessed to that extent
I genuinely don't know how to cope myself out of this it's a never ending cycle.

 

[Claymore7274]

I relate a lot to that, i'm very lanky and got into the gym 3 years ago, unfortunately that made me hate my body even more, as i barely had changed anything (i did go up 14kgs in two years then maintained) while some friends had a lot of progress in the same timespan, but they say comparison is the thief of joy.

To be fair i do have awful body genetics tho lol.

Then. past year due to a failed suicide attempt i fractured the cartilage of my nose, making it look ever so slightly crooked (it's sunken on one side), no one in my family circle has even noticed, but that's one more thing to obsess over.

Best not to think about it.

 

[EndlessRage]

I relate a lot to that, i'm very lanky and got into the gym 3 years ago, unfortunately that made me hate my body even more, as i barely had changed anything (i did go up 14kgs in two years then maintained) while some friends had a lot of progress in the same timespan, but they say comparison is the thief of joy.

To be fair i do have awful body genetics tho lol.

Then. past year due to a failed suicide attempt i fractured the cartilage of my nose, making it look ever so slightly crooked (it's sunken on one side), no one in my family circle has even noticed, but that's one more thing to obsess over.

Best not to think about it.

Oh i see, sorry you had to go through that
Did you ever consider taking steroids?