Venting I’m nervous to CTB

[lwovely]

Really nervous to CTB because I don't know if I'll do it perfectly. I still have a couple weeks to practice. My boyfriend wanted to bring me to Cabellas to buy a rope but I declined because I got so scared that he will find out. He already thinks I'm planning to camp during the summer but I know that isn't the case.

I really hope I can do it quickly and painlessly. I'm planning to do partial hanging, I already have an idea on where to get the rope it's just I need to push through my SI. I honestly am scared of what happens next afterwards and I don't wanna leave everything behind.

I don't know what to do on my last day though. Should I just have fun? I don't know….

 

[SVEN]

You're far from being alone in feeling apprehensive. It's very natural.

 

[Afterglow]

I don't know what to do on my last day though.

make the day of those who you love and just have fun.

 

[moonstroll]

Imagine your last day, you have the perfect day where you enjoy yourself as much as you possibly can... you could have that same day, again and again! Until you find peace in a natural death, and the end of your natural life. Worth bearing in mind!

 

[colour]

There's no rush. Take some time to make a list of things you've been wanting to do. If you're set on eventually going through with the attempt, then money won't be an issue.

In my case, I was at this stage a couple of times, but getting out and doing things/meeting people extended the timer that'd been running in my mind (at least for a little while).