Venting i'm leaving soon

[throneofdispair03]

Today, I woke up feeling different. I stayed home thinking about ending my life. I feel as if my time has come and that I only have a few more days to go. I tied a slipknot and a bowline for my method and I wrote a suicide note to my family. I don't know what sparked this, but I feel like my time is near.

 

[Subterran]

This sounds like this a foreign feeling to you. Are you afraid?

 

[FuneralCry]

I wish you the best in your plans, I hope that you find the freedom you search for.

 

[Some place nice]

I wish you the best of luck and hope you have a peaceful end.

 

[throneofdispair03]

This sounds like this a foreign feeling to you. Are you afraid?

i feel guilty for letting the people who raised me find me.

 

[sorlox]

Today, I woke up feeling different. I stayed home thinking about ending my life. I feel as if my time has come and that I only have a few more days to go. I tied a slipknot and a bowline for my method and I wrote a suicide note to my family. I don't know what sparked this, but I feel like my time is near.

Good luck, bro. May you find your peace

 

[Subterran]

i feel guilty for letting the people who raised me find me.

I understand. I don't know what your options are, but that doesn't have to be the case. Depending on the method, you can phone the police before you go, so that at least you won't be discovered by someone who loves you.

I've struggled a lot with the guilt of my decisions regarding my depression and suicidal ideations. They're still a very much unresolved problem for me. If you want to talk about any of that, I'd be very interested to hear you out.