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SpaxeZ
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- Feb 28, 2021
- 70
I'm a 24 year old boy inside a refugee camp and I feel super suicidal. My main reason for that is having noncurable sexual dysfunction since 17 or 18 and I never felt how havijg sex feels for real. I been suicidal ever since. Add to that narcissistic parents and traumas. I wanted to kill myself for so long and was a coward or too optimistic to not do it when I had to. Being too depressed I already messed up my first interview and now feeling so sad and super stressed but it's so crazy like I don't even want to be vrsnted asylum because then after I'd be still having my main issue so whatever this is not what I really want. I want a sure and instant death but still I keep wanting to win my asylum and get out of this hellish refugee camp. I'm so done so tired of this situation. Wish I knew how to commit tonight and die for real in a way that not even my corpse would have been found.