Im in hell

[Some place nice]

I woke up and they weren't there. I thought they would be I really wanted them to be there. I feel as tho I cant say I love you to them anymore but, they still send kissing emojis. We are supposed to be just friends rn but they aren't acting like it. I just want them here too cuddle. It is hell waking up to them not there or them not pulling me into them. I miss their breathing it was so nice to listen too. It was like my lullaby every time we slept. I miss them so fucking much that it hurts. I just wanted to go with them or tell them not to go. What I wouldn't give to be with them but, they are going through a lot rn so I have to wait. I dont even know if they'll still like me the same after they get better. They might just end up leaving me like everyone else. I hope not but you never know ig.