Venting I'm gonna disappear from the world and no one will ever care as much as I did

[LonelyStarrySky]

"Nooo don't kill yourself" "I need you here so I can continue ignoring you, doing absolutely nothing to ever help you, ruining your life, making you feel miserable, isolated, and lonely, and demanding that you do things for me!!! You matter so much, don't go!!"

"You're so smart, so intelligent, and you can do so many things!! Look at all the stuff you know! You've got it all figured out! But I'll never be able to do those things! I'm never gonna do anything you ever did or wanted me to. I would hate to do a single thing for you, ever, because I hate you. I hate you and I hate you. I hate you. I HATE YOU. I HATE YOU! I HATE YOU! I HATE YOU!!! I HATE YOU!!!! with love <3"

 

[ClaudeCTTE]

It always happens to me.

Are you depressed?
"God loves you"
"Smile, you are here"
"Life is beautiful"
"Appreciate what you have" (Nothing)
"Think positive" (I'm going to CTB tomorrow ʘᴗʘ✿)
"Make an effort, and you'll get what you want" (omw to find N).

Are you a completely normal person?
"You suck"
"Nobody loves you
"You're a burden" (proceeds to ignore you).