I'm going within the next hour.

[Zeus35]

You are doing really well. You will find peace soon. Close you eyes, try and relax and take deep long breaths. Breathe in through your nose and out through your mouth.

I'm scared

 

[Endtimes1]

It's always ok to not do it, please remember this. Postponing or totally cancel is always ok. This is only about you and no one else.

 

[Ecka-26]

x

 

[Cathy Ames]

You don't have to do it, Gemstone. It might not be the right time yet, despite all that has happened.

 

[FuneralCry]

This life really is so cruel and unfair and I'm sorry that it has come to this point for you. It sounds really unbearable what you have had to endure. It is sad how so much pain exists in this world and that people feel like they have no other choice but to leave. I hope that in whatever happens you find relief from suffering.

 

[miserableforever]

I'm scared

Your case saddens me. A lot. I see similarities and I feel your pain. I hope you're ok over there.

 

[Judy Garland]

I'm scared

Don't be afraid. Heaven, Home, is real.

 

[london3]

I'm scared

I hope you have found peace

 

[Shivali]

:Herz:Rest in peace

 

[Cathy Ames]

Don't be afraid. Heaven, Home, is real.

@Zeus35, I keep checking to see whether you've been back on the site. Whatever has happened, I hope you are okay and doing better now. If you are in Heaven, please send me some of that peace and some hope, too.

P.S. If you changed your mind, that's okay, too, of course. I'll be glad to see you--selfishly, because I know it sucks in this world where uncaring people can so casually take away your health, safety, and future.

 

[sophie22German]

It's been five hours since zeus was online. So I hope he was successful

 

[starryeyedgemini]

Hope hes at peace whatever the outcome

 

[Cathy Ames]

It's been five hours since zeus was online. So I hope he was successful

Hope hes at peace whatever the outcome

She. This is a young, college-aged woman.

 

[starryeyedgemini]

She. This is a young, college-aged woman.

Sorry my mistake - that was a typo

 

[Cathy Ames]

Sorry my mistake - that was a typo

No, don't apologize. I just wanted to try to make sure future replies had a better sense of who she was, rather than getting the impression that she was a man. Of course if she's gone, it won't matter to her, so that might be silly of me, but....

 

[sophie22German]

She. This is a young, college-aged woman.

Sorry. So pretty much my age. So sad

 

[Zeus35]

I'm not dead. I made the mixture had some and then threw it in the sink. It was extremely salty. Plus I gagged alot when I tool the antacid. It was traumatic. The water went yellowish once the nitrite was in. I still feel shit. I've not been to hospital or anything because I didn't even take a sip I just put it in my mouth and spat it out.
I guess it wasn't my time to go. Had there been no taste to the sodium nitrite then I would have dank it.

 

[Ecka-26]

I'm happy you're still here you're so brave no matter what you decide to do.

 

[Cathy Ames]

Can you think of something nice you can do for yourself to give yourself a little break from the horribleness? Music? Ice cream? A favorite book or television show while wrapped up in your favorite blanket?

 

[london3]

I'm not dead. I made the mixture had some and then threw it in the sink. It was extremely salty. Plus I gagged alot when I tool the antacid. It was traumatic. The water went yellowish once the nitrite was in. I still feel shit. I've not been to hospital or anything because I didn't even take a sip I just put it in my mouth and spat it out.
I guess it wasn't my time to go. Had there been no taste to the sodium nitrite then I would have dank it.

Really sorry to hear this but glad you are here, there is absolutely no pressure and only you decide when you are ready.

The salty taste can be unbearable for some people, surprised about the antacid making you gag, maybe tablets will be better than liquid? Maybe try numbing your mouth next time with Difflam rinse or Orajel? That will numb your mouth and make it less unpleasant .

Survival instinct is very strong for everyone and i guess it was not your time to go. Please take some time and relax, you can always try again if you want or even decide not to do it.

I hope it was not too traumatic and understand that you need to rest.

Take care

 

[Medicmedic72]

Zeus, I don't think we have ever spoken, and I certainly didn't know this was your backstory. I am so sorry for your pain. I wish you well. If you do not decide to go through with it, please return so I can get to know you.
Best wishes. Safe travels.

 

[ihatethecia]

I did the same exact thing as you , take a sip and spit it out, I got symptoms - so possibly swallowed some . Did you get any symptoms ? How do you feel

 

[sophie22German]

Welcome back, @Zeus35 . I hope you're doing well. If you wish to talk to someone of about your age, feel free to write.
Yours Sophie

 

[Shu]

Gemstone?

 

[Ecka-26]

Gemstone?

Yes,It's her.

 

[Zeus35]

Really sorry to hear this but glad you are here, there is absolutely no pressure and only you decide when you are ready.

The salty taste can be unbearable for some people, surprised about the antacid making you gag, maybe tablets will be better than liquid? Maybe try numbing your mouth next time with Difflam rinse or Orajel? That will numb your mouth and make it less unpleasant .

Survival instinct is very strong for everyone and i guess it was not your time to go. Please take some time and relax, you can always try again if you want or even decide not to do it.

I hope it was not too traumatic and understand that you need to rest.

Take care

I took gaviscon in liquid form and got dihorrea. Not pleasant when I was trying to die.

It's always ok to not do it, please remember this. Postponing or totally cancel is always ok. This is only about you and no one else.

Thank you x

You don't have to do it, Gemstone. It might not be the right time yet, despite all that has happened.

I'm still here x

This life really is so cruel and unfair and I'm sorry that it has come to this point for you. It sounds really unbearable what you have had to endure. It is sad how so much pain exists in this world and that people feel like they have no other choice but to leave. I hope that in whatever happens you find relief from suffering.

Thank you x

Your case saddens me. A lot. I see similarities and I feel your pain. I hope you're ok over there.

I'm still here x

I hope you have found peace

Nope I'm still here x

 

[Tbj123]

I'm not dead. I made the mixture had some and then threw it in the sink. It was extremely salty. Plus I gagged alot when I tool the antacid. It was traumatic. The water went yellowish once the nitrite was in. I still feel shit. I've not been to hospital or anything because I didn't even take a sip I just put it in my mouth and spat it out.
I guess it wasn't my time to go. Had there been no taste to the sodium nitrite then I would have dank it.

Glad you are still with us.

 

[Zeus35]

:Herz:Rest in peace View attachment 94457

Still here, I love the image by the way x

@Zeus35, I keep checking to see whether you've been back on the site. Whatever has happened, I hope you are okay and doing better now. If you are in Heaven, please send me some of that peace and some hope, too.

P.S. If you changed your mind, that's okay, too, of course. I'll be glad to see you--selfishly, because I know it sucks in this world where uncaring people can so casually take away your health, safety, and future.

I'm here Cathy x

 

[nightnightnitrite]

I'm so sorry you went through that just trying to find some peace, I hope you are resting up and feel better soon<3

 

[Zeus35]

No, don't apologize. I just wanted to try to make sure future replies had a better sense of who she was, rather than getting the impression that she was a man. Of course if she's gone, it won't matter to her, so that might be silly of me, but....

Zeus is a male Greek god. I see why people assumed I was male. I changed my name for more anonymity x

Can you think of something nice you can do for yourself to give yourself a little break from the horribleness? Music? Ice cream? A favorite book or television show while wrapped up in your favorite blanket?

Ice cream x

I'm happy you're still here you're so brave no matter what you decide to do.

Thank you Ecka